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Here We Go... Again!

Thursday, July 26, 2018

Here I am at the starting point again. Well, I never left it... not really.

My weight loss journey has been an ongoing saga for the past 12 years. It's like I've been fighting a never ending battle - one that I can't make a dent in. I wish I was exaggerating when I say I've been attempting to win this for 12 years, but sadly, it is the truth.

It's been 11 years since my son was born. I weighed 185 pounds when I got pregnant, dropped to 180 pounds by the time I was 4 months pregnant, and by the time I had given birth, I weighed in at 270 pounds. I know, that is a HUGE weight gain, but I've been carrying that extra around with me ever since.

I have tried every weight loss program under the sun. Some I have had success with (Spark People, Weight Watchers, and Beachbody), and some I have not. The programs that I have had some success with started out great. You know, I was in the right frame of mind, I planned all of my meals, made grocery lists, planned my workouts for the week, and it worked! Here's the kicker... every time I lost 15-20 pounds, I found some way to sabotage myself and reverse all the progress that I've made. Now, do you see why I call my journey a saga? LOL I honestly don't know why I do this to myself. I know I need to lose the weight and make some changes, but it's always been a start and fail task for me.

I am tired of feeling like the most enormous person in any room that I walk in to, I am tired of feeling like I'm being judged ALL the time, I'm tired of not finding cute clothes that fit me properly, I am tired of not being able to walk without pain in my knees and ankles, and most of all, I am tired of being tired. This has got to stop!

I am hoping that I can turn myself around and finally get to the finish line. It's not going to be easy, I know that, but I need to do this once and for all. My health is at risk, and that's nothing to mess with.

My biggest goal is to write at least one journal/blog entry a day. It's a way to document my journey, and something for me to reflect on as I make my way to that finish line.

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  • RHOOK20047
    Welcome back to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome back and get active on this site. emoticon
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  • COOP9002
    Blessings on this journey. We have all had our ups and downs. Hopefully, you will find the support and encouragement you need to get to where you want to be.
    453 days ago
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