Here We Go... Again!
Thursday, July 26, 2018
Here I am at the starting point again. Well, I never left it... not really.
My weight loss journey has been an ongoing saga for the past 12 years. It's like I've been fighting a never ending battle - one that I can't make a dent in. I wish I was exaggerating when I say I've been attempting to win this for 12 years, but sadly, it is the truth.
It's been 11 years since my son was born. I weighed 185 pounds when I got pregnant, dropped to 180 pounds by the time I was 4 months pregnant, and by the time I had given birth, I weighed in at 270 pounds. I know, that is a HUGE weight gain, but I've been carrying that extra around with me ever since.
I have tried every weight loss program under the sun. Some I have had success with (Spark People, Weight Watchers, and Beachbody), and some I have not. The programs that I have had some success with started out great. You know, I was in the right frame of mind, I planned all of my meals, made grocery lists, planned my workouts for the week, and it worked! Here's the kicker... every time I lost 15-20 pounds, I found some way to sabotage myself and reverse all the progress that I've made. Now, do you see why I call my journey a saga? LOL I honestly don't know why I do this to myself. I know I need to lose the weight and make some changes, but it's always been a start and fail task for me.
I am tired of feeling like the most enormous person in any room that I walk in to, I am tired of feeling like I'm being judged ALL the time, I'm tired of not finding cute clothes that fit me properly, I am tired of not being able to walk without pain in my knees and ankles, and most of all, I am tired of being tired. This has got to stop!
I am hoping that I can turn myself around and finally get to the finish line. It's not going to be easy, I know that, but I need to do this once and for all. My health is at risk, and that's nothing to mess with.
My biggest goal is to write at least one journal/blog entry a day. It's a way to document my journey, and something for me to reflect on as I make my way to that finish line.