This is not my first time trying to get healthy and lose weight.
This is not my second time...it's not my third time either.
To be honest, my fitness journey mirrors that famous line from The Colour Purple, "all my life I had to fight".
I am 24 years old 5 ft 4 inches, 221 lbs. This is the biggest I've ever been but I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN BIG.
For a while that statement was my crutch until I started hiding behind it, dressing it up and accessorizing with a necklace of confidence.
I have always been into sports and dancing. I am no stranger to physical activity. What I seem to lack, however, is consistency and discipline.
The older I get, the more I develop the gift of talking myself out of things. Unfortunately, this works both ways. I can talk myself out of ANYTHING and this often times means that I talk myself out of healthy choices. The longer I do this for, the more difficult it becomes to get back on track and the faster 160 lbs turn into 221lbs.
So I'm back on the wagon again!
This time I'm taking a new approach.
I have found my "why" for doing this and it's not just health. I am owning the vanity that says "I wanna look as sexy as I feel". I am cheering my inner athlete who wants to play Badminton without walking around like the hunch back of Notre-Dame for days after (because muscle spasms are a real thing folks).
I am embracing all the happy pains of exercise and the pangs of hunger from reducing calories.
I am holding myself accountable for everything.
Good days and bad days...and the horrible day.
I am making a lifestyle out of this journey...not just a number on a scale...not just a diet.
I am in this for the long haul.
I want to set a trail ablaze!
It'll only take a spark.