Sunday, August 19, 2018
Last week was kind of a loss. I didn't eat well at all, had things I am NOT supposed to, more than I'm supposed to and didn't really work out at all. I walked down the stairs and my knee progressively got worse and by the last step I was sure my knee was going to give out from the pain of it. I've been avoiding stairs since and so my puppy potty training has not been as good. I could go on, but I'm not going to. Just know that it was a pretty rotten week for me, mostly caused by me, but some things out of my control, like my knee.
But looking back on this week and seeing the things that I caused and the the things that were out of my control, I've decided that this week will be different. I let so many things get in the way of everyday life that I need to be doing... like working out, taking my vitamins (big no-no to miss those!) and just doing the things around the house that need to be done. I made it to all of my appointments, but was not as prepared for them as I usually am
So, this week I will not let not getting enough sleep get in my way. I have a puppy, I'm not always going to get enough sleep and that is that. Crate training her will be crucial to me getting enough sleep, and we just started working on that. Now I'm not saying I can't take a nap if I truly need one, but most days this week I have appointments to be at in the morning and if I take a lunch nap I get anxious that I will oversleep and not pick up the kids in time. Having anxiety sucks like that, but it is what it is.
Most days I have morning appointments, so working out in the morning is a no, sadly, unless I get up even earlier than I am to do so, which is not going to happen. So I'll either have to work out when I get home from my appointments, or work out after I pick up the kids from school. Since the kids usually have homework and chores to do, I'll go for working out after I get home from my appointments. Days that I don't have appointments I'll work out right after I drop the kids off at school.
I'm kinda stuck on what to do about strength training exercises. Everything involves core, and I have a rather large hernia and am not suppose to lift more than 10 pounds (and that is pushing it) or work it out too much as that will just make the hernia bigger. Don't want that. I'm going to see my general surgeon on Tuesday to see if I've lost enough weight to make him happy and remove the hernia. If not, I'm going to tell him I will go see another surgeon till I find someone to do it. I can't go on like this, I need to be able to do strength training. My core is so weak at this point I'm going to need physical therapy.
I'm going to change quite a few things, I won't put them all here, it's going to be a slow process, I'm going to write them out on the computer, then order them by importance and put together a plan on how I'm going to turn them into routines/habits or whatnot.
Top on my priority list will be self care, something I've been neglecting for quite a while, thanks to depression and anxiety. Not going to let that get in my way any more, because I feel better when I take care of myself.
Anyway, that is what I plan on spending today doing. And probably tomorrow as well. It is noisy here right now, so I can't concentrate, so I'll have to wait till things quiet down.