My Adventures in Spark Land...day 87 of 365 days...my discovery while watching 'Christmas Cottage'
Sunday, October 28, 2018
Yesterday I watched the movie 'The Christmas Cottage'. When I watched the movie I could so related to the maid of honor whose name is Lacey. Lacey is this classy lady whose childhood friend Ava is getting married. Ave and Lacey spend many childhood Christmas at Ava's family mythical cottage, Ava's family have all gotten married around Christmas and have spend their honeymoon in this cottage. The myth is who ever spends the night at the cottage together around Christmas time finds true love. Both girls grew up believing this. Now Lacey no longer believes the myth or in the magic of Christmas. She decides as maid of honor the help Ava by decorating the Cottage. She orders white lights, white ornaments, white flowers, etc. In Lacey's eyes it's a clean, classic look. To be honest I loved it also. Of course Ava doesn't quit trust Lacey's taste and sends her brother Ean to 'help'. He lets Lacey decorate the cottage then brings out the family Christmas decor which he convinces Lacey Ava would enjoy as well. I can't relate to Ava the bride. She believes in Christmas-the myth of the cottage, the magic of Christmas, romance, happy ever after, etc.
At one point in the movie, Ave and Lacey are talking. Lacey says to Ava, 'when we are little old ladies you still will be telling me fairy tale stories.' This hit me hard!
As a child I loved fairy tales. I loved TV. I loves movies. My mom kept telling me over and over that none of this is real. She was a teacher who hated Dr. Seuss. I loved Dr. Seuss. When I heard Lacey tell Ava that, it unlocked more childhood memories. My mom had me believing that in order to grow-up and mature, I had to become someone I wasn't. Someone who looked at all that as immaturity. Looking back yesterday I could see the more I changed to prove to my mom I was mature and grown up, the more my heart harden and the more I lost my inter joy.
When Lacey arrived at the lodge, Ava told her to change into her party clothes. Lacey said she was in her party clothes. All her clothes were grey. Ava said she needs to add more color to her life.
I like the clean classy look of Lacey but my clothes and world wasn't grey and white like Lacey's. It was blue and white. I like my off white shower curtain and my white walls and fixtures. And blue and off white towels. I like white lights on my fake Christmas tree with ornaments that all match and are the same red and gold I like the clean classy look. I realized when I tried to become the mature adult my mom wanted me to be, she took away the person I was. She took away my belief in fairy tales and romance and magic and the joy! I like Lacey need to find that part of me again.
I like Hallmark Christmas movies because a lot of their movies finding that inter joy of Christmas again. I didn't know I lost the magic of Christmas until I watched the movie 'Let it snow'. Now I watch these Christmas movies and can relate to them.
I am not sure how I am going to get that part of me back again but I am going to try.
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