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The Struggle is Real and Happening Here and Now

Monday, October 29, 2018

When ever I see memes quoting the phrase “The struggle is real”, my response is rote based on how funny or cute the context of the message is. I never really put in much thought as to what the phrase really means. Everybody struggles from time to time with life’s happenings. I’ve been fortunate to experience fewer serious struggles in my life than others. However, thinking on this phrase I realized, especially at this point in time, that my situation, however benign in comparison to someone else’s situation, is a struggle. It’s a struggle for me. Today is honestly the first day all month that I feel like the fog is lifting. At the beginning of the month my 21 month old and I had a gastro virus around the same time we traveled 7hrs by car to visit family. Family can be exhausting at the best of times, add some bathroom adventures to that, and well, you can guess how much fun that visit was. After we got back home and settled into our routine we all got hit with a rather nasty cold. Ok, so I have a 4 year old and a 21 month old, viruses happen. Everyone was seemingly on the mend. I was feeling better too. Then I started to feel bad again, really bad. I was so tired and congested and foggy. Turns out I had one heck of a sinus infection. Something I’ve never had before. I’m now on antibiotics because it just kept getting worse. I resent this because I hate taking medication. I won’t even take aspirin, etc. unless the pain is unbearable, but I feel I didn’t have a choice in this and since starting them I am feeling better. Previous to all this I had gained back my hard earned 4lbs loss from the summer 5% challenge. I have been struggling so much with eating, working out consistently, and motivation. I tend to engage in heavy self criticism and negative self talk so being sick all month and not able to workout at all has done a number on my self perception. Yet, I know that my body needed to rest and heal, but not being able to do the things I wanted is incredibly frustrating and has led to feelings of self defeat. Most days it was hard work just to get my son up and ready to go to preschool. But now, as I’ve said the fog is lifting. I no longer feel like I’m drowning, just maybe treading water but my head’s above the water now. So the struggles have been real for me this past month and they’ll probably continue to be until I feel like I’m back on track and making progress - and that might take awhile. However, I’ll keep struggling because I’ve also realized that as long as I’m struggling I haven’t given up. If you’ve read this long rambling mess with probably too much unnecessary information, thank you! This is my first blog post. I rarely post anything, but I felt I needed to document this feeling of struggling to make it more real or tangible perhaps and move forward through it. Thanks again. All the best, Adrienne
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  • I-AM-TITANIUM
    I am glad you are on the mend .. I have missed you..

    On a personal note .. I blog for me! The thought that you wrote to put thoughts and feelings and struggles on a page is admirable! I would like people to 'like' my blogs, but I don't write for approval.

    Struggle are real .. the size is the same for all, meaning, a struggle is a struggle.. it's real and doesn't 'compare' to others struggles .. Two kids.. a 7 hour road trip.. diarrhea ..colds ..sinus infection .. antibiotics ..

    Yeah .. that's struggles!

    Please don't beat yourself up for being human ..

    Think of yourself this way .. You are a product of your two parents .. they are a product of their two parents and so on ..
    You are the embodiment of thousands of years of people .. and you passed that Wonderfulness on to your children ..

    When you quit crying .. Smile and hug the kids .. and be Wonderful..!
    594 days ago
  • ROSALIE28
    You've been through alot. Trying to work through viruses, sick children and still expected to function is very difficult! Based on your first blog, you have continued the journey! Each day a tough struggle but you have kept going! Having went through some very difficult times with my daughter from birth through about 11 years old, I could appreciate how tough things can be. I was blessed my son didn't have the same health issues. At times, struggling through was the only thing you could do! Your struggle will be your strength. You aren't giving up and that in itself shows you are succeeding. Best wishes to you!
    601 days ago
  • no profile photo CD22994956
    So glad you wrote your way to wellness....I have a friend who blogs often here, and she told me to write for myself....I think that's what you've done here, to get clarity, and to do a deeper dive than what is usually done on the CF. I have quit hanging out as much on the CF, because it has become filled with a whole lotta fluff, and not much substance. In reading blogs by Sparkers, I am finding out more about them than the feed, with it's throw away lines (ie "the struggle is real") can deliver. So glad I read YOURS today....it took me back to the time when I had two little ones.....constant fatigue from managing all of our viruses was a HUGE part of daily existence. ((hugs)) Leigh
    602 days ago
  • LARISSA238
    Keep it up! Sometimes you just have to keep pushing! I'm glad you posted!
    615 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    I look at each day as a chance to start over and reach my goals. Today is the first day of the rest of your life! Make it a great one. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    615 days ago
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  • DRDIVA28
    Thanks for sharing. Sometimes just being able to tell someone about it can lift the rest of the fog or at least make the struggle seem more bearable. Hang in there, you are tougher than your circumstances. emoticon emoticon together :)
    616 days ago
  • BIKE4HEALTH
    It all begins someplace and you just started there. Sp is the way to do it.

    We want to remember it took us a few years to put our weight on and it comes off a little at a time, just like it went on. People get frustrated with it not coming off faster than we put it on. But with consistent focus on doing what we are told on SP we will hit our objective. Like many things it just wont get there overnight.

    Make sure you make one of your most focused goals you water intake. Myself, when I hit plateaus its because I am not doing the water correct. I found using a reminder on my phone to be very helpful in making sure I keep on track with the water

    616 days ago
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