Wednesday, November 14, 2018
It's November and for us in the US that means Thanksgiving. I'm sure quite a few people have been writing down what they're thankful for this month. I have always struggled with doing that but this year I made a point to at least write down in my planner one thing for that day. Today I decided to put this out there because the first thing that popped to my head this morning was all the people that have supported me on here.
This use to be my favorite time of the year when I was younger, but I've come to dread winter coming. I feel like all the hard work that I put in during the year to improve my health both physically and mentally just go by the wayside. I struggle. I struggle alone. I don't know why it's so hard to admit that when I know there are others who are dealing with the same, but sadly it is. I minimize my own suffering because I know there our others suffering worse than I am. I want to be a ray of hope for their lives and at the end of the day there's not much left over for my own life. I've finally reached the point were I can acknowledge that my pain is important too. And to actively see the part that my depression and anxiety play in my journey to lose weight. It may be a slow change I'm getting there and for the first time in a long long time I feel like I'm actually somewhat prepared for the oncoming months. And a big part of that is thanks to the wonderful people that I've met here that have supported me even when I haven't been the most active. It's amazing what having a great support team can do for you. So today, and every day, I am thankful for the people who have helped motivate and reached out to me along the way even when they didn't know I was struggling.