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Letting Go

Sunday, December 02, 2018

I could list out all my past issues, all my inner torment and play the blame game. The truth is though I made peace with my past long ago. I learned to move on from all the darkness and live my life again. The fact is every single person you meet has a past, has had some form of heart ache. Some people are in the thick of the battle I really hope you take the time to reach out to those people. Back to my excuses however, they don't exist. They don't weigh me down anymore. As a matter of fact I am one of the most positive people I know in my own way. I don't run around with a permanent smile or hug every person I see. My family can attest that I am not cheery af. I am however positive. I am the first person to point out something good when something goes horribly wrong. I am the one who will tell you how bad your circumstances suck but remind you this phase is a tiny portion of a long life. Even when a wrench is thrown in the best layed out plans if you keep a calm head and breath a new solution is never far. The fact is I do what I want, no self control. For years I didn't care and I was so freaking gloomy and depressed. I have left so much of that behind but the food, thats my friend. Its been with me through good and bad, happy and sad. Breakups and makeups, its my constant. I let everything else go but not my need for food. Today it hit me right in the face, I let my past go long ago but not the habit formed with it. I keep that front and center. Well no more ! Its time for a 100% break so my eating habits have to go ! Afterall as I stated before I do what I want, I have looked at that from a binge eating out of control selfish point of view. But if I flip that in my mind like I do what I want and I want to be healthy them my entire view is changed. So yes I do what I want but thats no longer an excuse, that will be my motto through this journey. I honestly hope each and every person who reads this will flip they're perspective and do what they want to !!
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    emoticon emoticon You are worth more than any bite of cookie! emoticon emoticon
    779 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/3/2018 3:17:09 PM
    781 days ago
    We just need our wants to be those that are good for us physically, emotionally and plan long range. We can't let our wants hurt the needs of others. Good blog!
    781 days ago
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