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Tuesday, December 11, 2018

It has been years since I have been able to feel in control of my eating. The last time I made really solid choices about my health was while I was pregnant with baby boy #3. I had gotten diagnosed with gestational diabetes and was devastated. He was enough of a reason though to eat well and I did, more for his sake than mine. However, as soon as he was born and all our tests came back normal, I carb loaded something awful and haven't been able to gain control since. It's been over 4 years.

Fast forward to 3 days ago, I finally got frustrated enough with my body and my weight to make some permanent changes. Keep in mind that I have started so many diets in the last 4 years and I can usually do it for about a week before I give up. Even in the midst of the first week, I find myself struggling with saying no to things like cookies, ice cream, cake etc. when it is offered. 3 days ago, I downloaded 2 health and fitness apps to my phone, this one and one other that I am using for a very specific purpose. That day I had read about making S.M.A.R.T. goals. Now, I have heard this more times than I can count in the last year and a half as I have pursued my degree but it never really clicked until Sunday. It was at that moment that I realized that one of the things that kept me from sticking with a diet was that I had no ending goal outside of reaching my goal weight. It didn't take me long to pick a date with graduation looming over me in the next 5 months or so.

Last night, at the end of the evening, I found myself starving right before bed. I hadn't logged my food since breakfast due to making a poor choice during snack time so I had no idea where I was at for calorie intake. I decided to log my food anyway so I would at least know how poorly I did and I discovered that I was still 200 calories under my minimum. I was going to allow myself 2 oreo cookies and some milk but I walked into the kitchen and all the sudden I didn't want them. I ended up grabbing a banana and a piece of string cheese instead.

Those who don't understand the struggles I have faced with food addictions and uncontrollable sugar cravings in the past years may not think that this is a big deal but I seriously feel like shouting from the rooftops because I am so proud of making that decision. Not only because I made the decision but because making that decision did not feel like a punishment. I actually WANTED the banana and string cheese instead of the cookies.

Suddenly I feel like my goal is 100% achievable.
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  • RHOOK20047
    Welcome to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. And remember you didn't gain the weight overnight and you won't lose it overnight. It takes time, determination, motivation and support. You can get it all right here! If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. If I can help in anyway, feel free to reach out to me! That is a great start! Yes is it a big deal. I have been there. You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome and get active on this site. emoticon
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    emoticon wow Sparktacular choices! it does help to find and hold onto your profound reasons why you even want to lose weight... because eating is yummy - and sometimes we just decide we're worth more than EXTRA bites of cookies! Hang in and find your way through... I can hear the desire & spark in your voice! Look forward & daydream your future :)

    647 days ago
    Great job getting going;)
    648 days ago
    How motivational! I needed to hear that!
    648 days ago
    Great job setting and achieving goals!
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