Monday, December 17, 2018
Today I started with the thought like most days of the last year....
"I'll eat better starting tomorrow".
Today I bought the largest size pants I ever plan to own. I was so depressed when I walked out of the dressing room but my other "largest I've ever been" size were strangling me at the waist. I am my own worst enemy. I would never say the things I think about myself to another person, why is it okay to say in my own head?
I am valuable to others. I am loved by others. I have already overcome so many demons, I know have strength. Now I have to figure out how to tap into that strength and what it means to love me, because I'm not sure I really know what that means or how to do it.
Starting for the gazillionth and last time.
I will make changes.
I will make mistakes.
I will am okay with my failures as long as I find the lesson.
I'm going to need support and guidance so here's to finding my Spark... for real this time.