My food defenses have been down since day 1 of 2019
Friday, January 18, 2019
Three nights in the past 18 days I've had real ice cream.
Three bagels with cream cheese, one without in those 18 days.
Deconstructed cookies (peanut butter, oats, nuts and a bit of sugar) as a snack.
I had lunch with my BFF yesterday. We haven't seen each other in a while and the chatting started in the parking lot. While chatting, I contemplated my lunch and my brain said: yes to the burger, remove the roll and order grilled veggies instead of fries. My mouth said something different and while eating that burger, in it's bun, I chowed down on sweet potato fries.
I had soup, then cheese and crackers for dinner! This is sooo 2013 for me!!! What's up?
The rest of my eating has been terrific and my weight is staying the same, probably due to my exercising.
Maybe it's related to working so closely with DH on his items which certainly hits me in my anxieties. He's been gifting me food as an apology. While we have managed to store this stuff in a reduced volume, it's not been reduced in number. He sees labeled kits of toys, I see an electronic storage facility. Seriously.
Sigh. At least I can close the doors. I almost have one of the kids bedrooms cleaned out enough to make my "quiet space" and told DH it's happening. Perhaps in my own little nook I'll calm down and grasp my inner strength again.