Week two of "Re-Inventing" Myself
Tuesday, January 22, 2019
This week was the beginning of the fade of the "who hoo I'm doing this". Workouts are getting harder, my mind is constantly trying to push off working out and having "one cookie" will be ok attitude and i have to admit.. I HATE IT! Its a constant struggle, but when I hit a real low I listen to a motivational video or two and realize that my mental battle... isn't that bad after all. Its normal to feel this way and to just keep pushing through, and once I push through that wall, I feel so much better!
Monday: I did my insanity work out and I was really pushing myself today. I even started yelling when doing the work out during the hard part. I felt foolish, but hey... the only one that's looking at me awkwardly is the dog so its ok! So I pushed hard and got my workout done and went to work. I really like the feeling of after a good workout of just sweating so hard it looks like you just jumped out of the shower. Its awesome.
Tuesday: Today was a big struggle. My alarm went off and I just wanted to sleep in until I absolutely had to get up for work. I have zero motivation and just wanted to sleep. But I kept thinking to myself, "You'll regret it if you don't get up and do your workout" and I knew I was right... but my bed so comfortable. My puppies where sleeping with me... I just didn't want to move. My mind kept racing with these thoughts and then I said to myself, "On the count of 3 your going to stand up from the bed." And without letting my mind try to talk myself out of it, I counted out loud to three, 1... 2...3... and stood up. Once I stood up my body started to wake up and then I thought, " Well since I won that battle and got out of bed, I'm up now, might as well move and get stuff done." And that's exactly what I did. I won a huge battle with my mind today and I couldn't have been more proud! I got dressed, dropped the kids off at school, and headed to my workout class at the YMCA! I ROCK!
Wednesday: Today I did another insanity workout. I'm really loving the sweat and the intensity of this workout program. My feet get a horrible cramping sensation during the workout but I work it out as best I can!
Thursday: Today I didn't have to work, but I was going to hit up a new cycling class at the YMCA. I chickened out last minute before the class and retreated to doing an insanity work out. I'm going to shoot for another class next week, but my anxiety got the best of me today and you know what... That's ok! I still did an amazing work out, I got my business done, and life is good!
Friday: INSANITY ALL THE WAY! I'm noticing I'm able to push myself more, sweat harder, and stretch better with each day I do insanity. I noticed when I really do give it my all and the work out is finished I feel like crying. Crying as in.. "I"m proud of myself". It's hard to praise myself let alone feel good for myself with the things I accomplish on a daily basis, but I"m pushing for more positivity!
Saturday: I worked from 8-2 today and so I chose this day as my rest day.
Sunday: WEIGH IN DAY! I was super excited about this weigh in day because I knew things were going to be different for my body and I couldn't wait to see the changes. So I did my weekly weight in and here are the results:
Starting weight: 290.2
Jan. 13th weigh in: 286.6
Jan. 20th weigh in: 288.8
I was a little taken back that I lost almost 5lbs the first week and then gained 2lbs back! I wasn't sure how to take this, and of course when I get upset, I want to emotionally eat my problems away. But I didn't! I've also been taking measurements from day one and even though I gained 2lbs, I shrunk almost 2inches everywhere! So I'm happy about that. I'm still seeing improvements even if its not just in my weight.