Sunday Ramblings -This That and the Other
Sunday, February 17, 2019
This morning I woke up and the sun was shinning, I was so excited. By the time I came out of church the black cloulds had moved in, more rain. My first thought was I wish I hadn't gone to church and had gone for a walk instead.
No that's not true....I wish I could go for a walk in the sun. I really enjoy going to church and today I found out one of the regular lady's lives just two blocks from where I will be moving. I am just sick of the rain. I know it is Oregon and it's going to rain, I've lived here all my life, still I get so tired of the rain. I want to get outside, to enjoy the sun work on gardening and just walk. Well the garden is a mud pit, and the sun only seems to appear when I am committed to doing something else.
I am having so much trouble getting motivated to do anything. Probably because the thing I really need to work on I really don't want to do. I need to pack to move, this will be my 3rd move in 2 years and second in 6 months. While it will be the easiest move I just got unpacked, now I have to repack.
There is also the fact that I will be moving into what I know will be a stressful situation, but one that is necessary. I am moving home to help my parents. Dad's been in a wheel chair for several years, and Mom is having health issues, so it is something that I really do need to do. Mom isn't really ready to admit she needs help, but she does, Dad on the other hand has a hole list of things he wants to get done around the house. Yea, trying to balance trying to assure Mom I'm not taking over and Dad's todo list is going to be a challenge in it's self.
I am still looking for at least a part time job, another frustration. I have an interview tomorrow and need to do my nails and get ready for that, but I would rather do that after diner when I'm sitting quiet watching TV. I'm averaging 4-5 interviews a week, just no job offers. I'm facing two issues, one I'm basically looking for and entry level position, yet my resume reads management. They have to be thinking will I stick around? Second this is a college town at 60 years old I'm going up against college students, young kids with more energy and looking to move up in the world. It's a challenge trying to convince an employer that because I am more mature and have more experience, I would actually be a better choice for the position. First off I understand where management is coming from, keeping busy not texting on the job, professional appearance and attitude, etc. Secondly I am not going to go out and party then calling in sick the next day, my party days are long over.
For some reason I have been starving all week and staying under my calorie goal has been a real challenge. Gee you think I might be a stress eater? I really didn't know I was, but I'm beginning to think I am. The first two weeks were no problem, it was mostly about making better choices in food and thinking about what I ate. This week with everything going on I just want to eat all the time.
Tomorrow is weigh in day for me, considering the problems I've had with my diet and workouts I've missed that should be stressing me out to. It's not, I'll be happy if I just don't gain weight. Earlier this week I tried on my jeans and although they were tight they fit. I know feel better than I did two weeks ago. I know even if I don't do everything I should I am doing more than I was. I am trying different workouts until the sun reappears, this week I did a kickboxing workout, that kicked my butt.
Well I guess my ramble is over. Thanks for stopping by to say hello and have a great day.