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Losing Steam --- Thoughts and Ramblings for a cold (8 degrees F) winter's morning...

Monday, February 18, 2019

I am exactly at the half way point to my first major goal 154.1. I started at 272.3 and granted that is a huge loss... and I'm down from a 3/4/5x to a M/L/XL depending on the manufacturer. With this loss I've noticed a lot of floppy stuff hanging around and I'm wondering if subconsciously that might be part of why I'm losing steam.

I have stopped tracking foods in the tracker --- but I always have a good idea where my calorie count is in my head. I have also stopped weighing and measuring foods as well. I haven't gained weight back, but my loss has slowed dramatically.

I have stopped being religious about my exercise as well. I'll get on the treadmill when I feel like it. Aside from my 4 physical therapy sessions a week I have stopped doing the strength training on purpose. Again, not gaining --- just my progress has slowed.

Pain is a major factor in this I'm sure... but my head hasn't been in the game either. A lot is weather related too considering we've had 3 1/2 feet of snow dumped on us here in about 10 days.

I've noticed my stress has increased dramatically as well... and I've started falling back in to old habits. I need to stop that.

I've always had the strongest will power when I decide to do something -- and losing nearly 70 pounds since September 2018 is quite a feat, and I recognize that. My brain is battling me on the accomplishment and pointing out that I still have a very long way to go.. to my first major goal of being under 200 pounds (I'm 7 pounds away from it) and ultimately to my final goal of 102 pounds again (pre-pregancy weight) or a size 2 (pre-pregnancy size). Considering I've already moved from a 2x bottoms (18-20) to a XL (14-16) -- And a 16 is loose on me ---- and a 3-5x tops to a M/L/XL (8-10/12-14/14-16) XL is baggy L seems about right, and M is just right depending on the style of the shirt so I figure probably about a size 12. So, yes, I have come quite a long way -- And a long way yet to go to get down to that 0-2 I used to be. It may happen, it may not. But at the end of the day I have to get my motivation back up. I have to start fighting for who I want to be and start moving in that direction. The who I was needs to lose the battle so who I want to be can take center stage.

I know I'll get there --- just hitting a few bumps in the road. I see the struggles of the people on here and I wonder how I've gotten so far in such a short amount of time and then I stalled and I'm now fighting the pause button for control again.

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    404 days ago
    Thank you both for the encouragement. I really need to get my head back in the game and start being very meticulous about tracking --- I think that in and of itself may very well break my plateau and make me more aware. I'm just glad I haven't blown up like a balloon so far lol.
    408 days ago
    I know how it is to get to these plateaus and have the enthusiasm go down. Tracking will remain being an important part of your journey, Jacque. Even though you aren't at your goal yet, you are getting close. Maintenance is just at hard as losing, maybe harder really. Try to remember where you came from and don't go back there. You can do this! It is a lifelong journey. All those healthy habits and routines that got you where you are, will be needed to keep you there.
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    409 days ago
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    From someone who has been in this battle many times and failed, I beg you to not hit the pause button. Get back in there and fight. Those pounds will begin to return and bite you in the you know where. Get at it again now. Don't delay.
    410 days ago
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