My salty life: Backstory
Thursday, February 21, 2019
Hi I'm 28. Mom of two girls age 1 and 2. Wife. And recently diabled. That word disabled has been so hard for me to grasp and accept.
When I pictured my life I envisioned having a family. I wanted to be the active mom that would go on adventures and be able to experience so many of things I love with them. But I'm learning that my ability to mother is going be different because I am disabled....
I met my wonderful husband in college. We married right after graduation. I started my career as a special education teacher. A challenging but very rewarding career. For two years we tried to get pregnant. It was exhausting. I wanted a family so bad. About the time I gave up hope I found out I was expecting. We were overjoyed with our daughter Lexi and by her first birthday we expecting again. The first half of the pregnancy was so much easier than the first but right at 24 weeks everything changed. I started to pass out frequently. Because of concern I would fall and hurt the baby I was put on bedrest. Even still just sitting up would cause me to pass out. One day I remember passing out 40 times. It was so scary since no one knew what was going on.
But I delivered at beautiful healthy baby girl with no complications and the best part was my symptoms were gone. I was elated. That chapter was closed and I could move on with life. I took my maternity leave and was back in the classroom adjusting to life with two kids under 2.
Six months later my symptoms started coming back slowly at first but by 8 months postpartum I was again bedridden and unable to care for my girls and still no answers. Finally I went to a specialist that diagnosed me with a condition called POTS.
Essentially my body does not do a good job pulling the blood from my feet to my head and heart rate rises really high to compensate.
I'm on some medicine to help and have to take 6 grams of salt a day to keep me on my feet.
I can finally be left alone with my girls again safely. I just have to sit/lie down often. Though I still cant drive and I havent been able to work in 6 months.
My life has definitely changed and there are days I really miss my life before.
But my life is still great. I may need to use a wheelchair. I may have to lie down in the middle of a grocery store. But I still have the love of God and my family and that is worth pushing forward. It may look different but it's my salty life.