My salty life: Losses and Gains - Day 2
Saturday, February 23, 2019
POTS crashed into my life a year ago. Its changed so much. I am learning to live with and accept these changes. So each day I want to reflect on things that I lost and gained.
Loss: My job
I am a special education teacher. I teach middle school students with moderate to severe disabilities. It can be challenging. But I love it. I tried to start this school year but after a couple days I started to pass out and it simply wasn't feasible. I miss my students terribly. I found such joy in my work. I was hopeful that I could come back after they figure out what was wrong, but even with treatment I still cant work or drive. I get updates from my classroom and it just aches. If I cant make it back to work by August I will have to give up my classroom. It feels like giving up a child.
Gains: quantity time with my girls
At first I was so sick that I couldn't be alone with the girls. That was hard, but now my medicine and high salt diet have allowed me to be home without being afraid of sudden fainting. I will get a warning allowing me to rest and be able to keep going. It has been great seeing all these moments develop with girls. They are learning so much at this age. I never thought I would be able to be a stay at home mom. Some days are hard but i know i will never get these days back. And I am treasuring these moments.