Saturday, April 13, 2019
When I was in highschool I was made fun of constantly about everything I did. It wasn't so much about my weight but my hair, that I was behind developing physically, my height etc. I began to hate my body. In college I began gaining weight and then after i married gained even more after 3 pregnancies. I hated myself. I lost my love for swimming because i had to wear a swimsuit, I didn't want to be a bridesmaid because the dresses were for skinny people, and so forth. Then my middle son was diagnosed with Autism. I threw all my being into him which is how it should be but I didn't take care of me. Then 10 years ago at the age of 38 I developed a seizure disorder from stress. Still I didn't take care of myself. I need to love myself and that's what I want to do. I want to love my body and not feel ashamed. Thank you all for supporting me. I'm crying as I write this.