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Loving myself

Saturday, April 13, 2019


When I was in highschool I was made fun of constantly about everything I did. It wasn't so much about my weight but my hair, that I was behind developing physically, my height etc. I began to hate my body. In college I began gaining weight and then after i married gained even more after 3 pregnancies. I hated myself. I lost my love for swimming because i had to wear a swimsuit, I didn't want to be a bridesmaid because the dresses were for skinny people, and so forth. Then my middle son was diagnosed with Autism. I threw all my being into him which is how it should be but I didn't take care of me. Then 10 years ago at the age of 38 I developed a seizure disorder from stress. Still I didn't take care of myself. I need to love myself and that's what I want to do. I want to love my body and not feel ashamed. Thank you all for supporting me. I'm crying as I write this.
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  • DWROBERGE
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    351 days ago
  • SIMPLY_JAE
    Everyday is a new day.. It is one of God's greatest blessings..it is hard but we have to learn to just let it go..don't look back.. you are not going that way...
    359 days ago
  • POSEY440
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    359 days ago
  • SUSMANNIE
    You have a pretty smile!
    359 days ago
  • LASOLA1
    Dear lady, wish I could give you a hug. Why do we hate these good bodies, that do everything for us and bring us all the joy we have in life? Your body - mine too - is a GOOD body! It's served us faithfully all these years. It's strong and able. It's the door by which our kids came into the world. Being made fun of by other kids all through school... me too; and I agreed with them, in my deepest heart, that they were right and I was ugly, fat, not cool, etc. We can un-do this harm that was done to us, really we can. Small, loving gestures to ourselves can change that inner mind, and we learn to appreciate, thank, and delight in our bodies. Doesn't happen all at once but it does happen. I'm glad you're on Sparkpeople!
    359 days ago
  • DARCY-B
    I struggle with emotional eating. Always have. Taking care of myself has usually taken a back seat. I am making progress in changing these things and I know you can too. SP is full of support, encouragement, guidance, and people who get it.
    360 days ago
  • BIGRENTMAN
    Me too, Hello my name is Brent and I’m an emotional eater it’s a battle everyday but together we all can do this together
    360 days ago
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