Random thoughts and feelings....
Monday, May 06, 2019
I'm lost, overwhelmed, undermotivated and just plain blah. On one hand I feel empty on the other shame. I lost my way a few years ago and I can't find my way back. In my PROLONGED absence the last few years I have gained a large amount of weight. Everything I lost I have gained back plus more, a lot more.
I'm exhausted an in an enormous amount of pain from MS, PsA, Fibromyalgia, and a hand full of back injuries. I'm also carrying around an extra 100 plus pounds of weight. Sometimes I am too overwhelmed to care anymore. I have to find the track before I can get back on it. I know if I don't lose this weight I;m going to end up in assisted living because I can't take care of myself. That should be motivation enough but....