Emotions are hard to describe

Just got the notice that guy #3 has bonded out of jail and will be on the 3:00 bus back to the complex where my daughter lives. After court yesterday we automatically moved her back in for awhile suspecting this would happen. He has 48 hours to remove all of his belongings since he has been evicted. He has a court order he is not to ride the bus system, cannot go to McDonald’s, return back to the complex, he wears a tether, calls in once a week, and no contact with her. Feelings are hard to describe but I still have to go through this again Wednesday with guy #2, since we already did with guy #1. In the safety of my home I cry, feel so alone, and overwhelmed. when I get into the courtroom setting and see these guys in their striped attired with handcuffs with no remorse I feel so much hurt. 2 are now “free” waiting for circuit court and I have a sense of fear we will accidentally run into them someplace and how do we avoid them.