Thursday, May 09, 2019
Recently, I was looking through old photo albums. My FIL had just passed away and we were reminiscing and enjoying the old photos. One of the photos was of me, DH, MIL, and FIL in front of our first house thirty years ago. I thought to my self - Hey, I look pretty good in that photo.
Of course, I was much thinner then but the realization is - even back then I thought I was fat.
Another realization - I have not been kind to me. Years of neglecting myself have resulted in poor diet and exercise habits. I worked too hard and rewarded myself with food. I have lost weight and gained it back.
I am finally at the time where I feel I must do something lasting. I feel bad everyday - headaches, heartburn/indigestion, and backaches. I take numerous prescription medications - for headaches, cholesterol, blood pressure. In my head, I know that most of my problems are related to my weight and my nutrition. I have known this for a long time but I have not been successful in sticking with a lifestyle change long enough to see a positive difference in how I feel.
In the past, I have tried to make too many changes at once and I get burned out. This time, I am going back to basics - drinking my water, logging my food, and exercising 10 minutes each day.
I have to develop a new mindset and a new relationship with food. Instead of telling myself that I deserve to eat whatever I want, I will tell myself that I deserve to feel good and be healthy and strong.