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Honeymoon's Over on Day 3?

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

I am back sparking after many years away. Lost a lot of weight, gained a lot of it back so here I am again. Day 1 & 2 were pretty good. Today as I was getting dressed for work, I suddenly had the body anxiety that has plagued me all my life. My clothes aren't fitting right and I feel huge again and I just wanted to climb back into bed and pull the covers over my head. This feeling has followed me around all day and spiked again when I changed clothes after work and discovered one of my t-shirts I haven't worn since last summer is way too tight. I am sad and discouraged and I don't want to have to struggle with my weight all my life. I am thankful for SP and all the encouragement and inspiration I find here. I know I have to keep pushing through all these feelings and not let them pull me back into my unhealthy habits. So here I am on SP rather than spiraling into snackiness.
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  • AMYJO1967
    Oh girl...I so feel ya! I have been putting off the needed hours spent going thru my too-packed closet to remove all the stuff that doesn't fit and move it to my other closet "until it does", because I am determined that it someday WILL. I had to dress for a job interview the other day, and my current job has me in a uniform, so I hadn't worn my own dressy tops in awhile. The ones that fit last summer are too snug now. emoticon I can get them on, and they don't even look "that bad" to someone less critical than myself, but I feel huge and uncomfortable in them, so I may as well move them out of the closet "until".

    Together we can help each other reach our "until"! emoticon
    278 days ago
  • MISTRESSOHORROR
    Hang in there. It's so frustrating to not fit into clothes and feel so huge. I hate it. I am there. I am determined to lose this flab and get on with life without anxiety about my size!

    Hugs! I here in the muck with ya!
    286 days ago
  • S_MHANCOCK
    Nice!!
    286 days ago
  • SPICY23
    emoticon back!
    It is what it is. However long, however many times it takes, you are worth it!
    emoticon You have the knowledge that you can do this, because you did it before already! emoticon That puts you ahead of the curve.
    Yes, it will take work, just like it did before. You can do it. Then you will need to learn how to maintain which will look a lot like what you do to lose the excess. But you know it's doable.

    Peace and Care
    286 days ago
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