On the road , eating intuitively.
Thursday, May 16, 2019
It has been a rocky road. Some crystal clear times when I am able to slow down enough in order to listen to my body. Some very opaque ones, when I find myself gorging on food and feeling discouraged. I have gained 5 lb in the process. Yes, I know, I am not supposed to weigh myself. O well.
One thing is clear: all my years of dieting did not get me to a place of balance with food.Onthe contrary, it has made me feel like I have failed. So I will not diet again.Been there, done that, despite the best conditions possible, encouraging and supportive team mates, a great team. But still in the same place.
Right now because of the weight gain and of my resolve to not diet again,I am rereading the intuitive eating work book, particularly the chapter on emotional eating.Turns out that before even looking into emotional eating, I have to establish a structure that supports a balanced life. Makes total sense!
It also refers you to chapter 3: make peace with food and chapter 4: challenge the food police.
I am sceptical of some of their propositions about the fact that all food should have equal emotional value. I do believe in certain food for certain circumstances, like a special cake for birthday or champagne for newyear or really good fruit cake (it is so rare) around Christmas time ,or latkes around that same time.
So I guess I will have to tailor this to my own thinking and intuition.
But meanwhile I am busy working on balancing my day and my life in order to lessen the episodes of emotional eating .
And of course, learning to listen to my hunger and stop eating when full. I realize that because of all those years of turning off the hunger signals, I can operate on very little fuel, until all of a sudden and without warning, I could (and alas often do) eat everything in sight.
So this is my report for today.
P.S. Feeling so full from my excessive eating the last few days, but still having not eaten anything for breakfast, at 10:30 am I tried to see what food i wanted. It was carrots. But i am out of carrots. So I steamed some nice broccoli in the micro wave and I am eating them with olive oil and balsamic vinegar. Delish, and surprising