I just got on the scale and it's the highest it's been (barring two pregnancies) in 15 years.
I keep trying things and they keep not working, or I keep not doing the work. Either way, it's not looking good. I've been trying to lose weight to get back to my easy healthy baseline for a year or more. I've been trying my normal methods that have worked in the past: Weight Watchers online, Weight Watchers Meetings, tracking things, exercising, planning...but nothing is sticking. Or again, I can't stick to it. I know what to do, but I can't seem to make myself do it consistently.
Instead, I'm like those little mice at the pet store, just running around and around on their little exercise wheel, moving nowhere. Except, they're probably running more than I am.
I start. I do well for a few days and then I drop off. I keep telling myself this is the week I'll do it and it'll stick. No REALLY this is THE WEEK!
I'll plan out my lunches for work. I'll go to the Monday morning class at 6 AM. I'll drink my two water bottles a day. And then by Wednesday, I'm spent. I'm overeating at night. I'm staying up late. I'm not cooking dinner for myself or my family. I'll skip the morning exercise class. And then it's Friday, exhaustion, pizza, movie with kids. Ramp up again on Saturday, exercise. Sunday I'm promising again that this week will be different.
And then the cycle continues.
Ugh. This is overwhelming. This is depressing. I feel like I keep trying and failing and trying and failing. I plan differently, but I do the same stuff. I want to change. But I suppose I really don't or i would do it.
I'm just finally making a job change that I am hoping will lower my stress and exhaustion in the next month. But in the meantime, I need some help.
I joined and now quit Weight Watchers. The new program was making me obsess about food and binge even more. Not a good fit. I recently rejoined a women's workout group. I bought myself a new fitbit. I downloaded My Fitness Pal, but I don't seem to actually use it. One day a week isn't quite cutting it. I've gotten rid of junk food, but will find anything to binge on at night with TV. I've bought gum and special teas and sparkling water as substitutes, but nothing is taking.
I keep throwing that damn spaghetti noodle against the microwave to see what sticks, but it keeps just bouncing off.
Help me. Anyone? Bueller? Bueller?
I've got to figure this crap out. I need to find what works for me.