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The Hunger Fix

Saturday, May 18, 2019

It's hard to believe it's been almost a year since I last blogged. All in all, it hasn't been a great year. I reached my all-time high weight and am working my way back. I fractured the bones above and below the knee in multiple places, but because I'm fat, several doctors told me my pain was in my head and advised bariatric surgery, leaving me to limp around for nine months before being correctly diagnosed.

On the bright side, I've been doing some reading, and I recently came across a book called The Hunger Fix by Dr. Pam Peeke. I feel like she is talking to me. She writes about epigenetics, how environment affects gene expression.

She writes: … If you skip breakfast and drive your 30-mile commute and have a psycho boss waiting for you at the office, and you're not equipped with the right stress management strategies, your fight-or-flight genes will go into overdrive and hit total burnout. Your levels of acetylcholine and cortisol, stress hormones that trigger fat storage and cravings, go though the roof. To anesthetize the pains of your daily existence, you may dope up with continual False Fixes - often those conveniently available at the office vending machine or drive thrus on your way home. The constant dependence on False Fixes not only thickens your waistline and changes your brain structure but also takes its toll on your genes, changing their expression to one supporting addiction - further reinforcing the cycle. (p.12)

She goes on, describing me to a T. I'm also reading a book about how habits are formed and changed. I hope that, in combination, I learn how to control the mental aspects leading to healthy choices, because it's clear to me that the medical establishment will continue to write me off until I lose enough weight that they feel like doing their jobs.

(Before you pooh-pooh me, consider a recent doctor appointment, where I described how I walked half marathons just a couple years ago. He pretended to believe me, but then his assistant interrupted and said, "Wow You really DID race. I googled you, and there are pictures!" And the doctor suddenly took me a lot more seriously. Sad.)

As I approach my birthday next month, I want to be in a stronger place mentally and physically, and I'm finding the energy to take those steps. Surgery is scheduled for next week. Wish me luck!
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  • ANNIESADVENTURE
    Oh gosh, do I totally understand. I'm waiting for shoulder replacement that I can't have until I can get up from a sitting or prone position without using my hands because I won't be able to use the arm for 2 months rehab period. They never told me I had to lose weight, but that's the only way I see that happening. In the meantime...
    Hope all goes well for you.
    3 days ago
  • MSEMBERSTORM
    I have missed you!!! I totally understand about the doctors. I am glad you finally found the help you needed. The books sound interesting. I will have to check them out. Keep rocking!
    36 days ago
  • ENDUROVET
    Oh my! Glad I clicked over to see your updated blog...
    Best wishes for uncomplicated surgical recovery!
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    36 days ago
  • LIVINHEALTHY9
    Stay strong and keep fighting!

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    37 days ago
  • CJBAGGINS
    All the best with your surgery next week, Cat!

    And those doctors who dismiss you like that? I have no words that are really fit to print. Although Holly's were similar to my sentiments!
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    I pray the surgery is successful and the surgeons and support staff are exemplary.
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    cj
    37 days ago
  • DEBULACLARK
    You've got this Cat! I may look up that book myself. I'm here for you. Sending you all kinds of good thoughts, vibes and prayers!
    37 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
    keep on keeping on however you choose to do this...........
    we are here for you!!

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    38 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    Good luck with the surgery. I hope you have a speedy recovery and are able to meet your goals.
    38 days ago
  • NIGHTSKYSTAR
    doctors can be total asswaffles. i am very, very blessed and lucky to have my current team..all 3 of them (GP, cardiologist, and ortho surgeon) are kind, supportive, and the best cheerleaders i could ask for. They embraced my doing keto..encouraged it, and rejoice with me at every small victory on the path. but it wasnt long ago i dealth with the ones like you describe. too bad they are out there...

    I will be cheering you on!!
    38 days ago
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    38 days ago
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