Sunday, May 19, 2019
This has been a challenging week. We've traveled and eaten out a lot, which makes it hard to stay on a food plan. I just tried to stay on a calorie range, but I did have sugar, which triggers binge eating among other things. I enjoyed the family time, and we won't have much left with the aunt at 98, so I'm enjoying each time I see her and doing whatever she wants. This week it was ice cream sundaes! I NEVER eat them, so it sure was good. Thrift store shopping with her sure does wear me out, though! She can out shop me ANY day!
Also, I've had some health and energy challenges which have backed me off my exercise plan for the week. I think I'm letting it be an excuse now, though. It's hard to substitute gardening, etc., for a planned exercise and I don't have enough energy for both, so I've got to figure out how to count it and accomplish my goals.
I'm anticipating surgery in July, which will stall me on exercise for a while too, so it's easy to say, why try now, why not just wait til it's all over and start again. But that's not healthy for me, so I need to try to re-adjust things to fit life's present circumstances. Today's article on one of my challenges was by Dean Anderson and about setting goals. I needed to hear that, and challenge myself to be flexible and not use it as an excuse. I need to remember changing and accommodating my needs does not mean stopping, or failing.
Then, to complicate things even more, I'm having a difficult time sleeping because of pain. If I take pain pills, I sleep eat. If I don't take pain pills, I can't sleep and heal, and eventually, well, we don't want to go there. It's an emotional meltdown at best. It's even more important for me to adjust my goals to take my challenges into account.
So, today, I made a new recipe for rhubarb relish and I'm looking forward to trying it with supper tomorrow. My wonderful husband bought me a flat of wave petunias for my outside flower beds and that's on my schedule if I get off my backside before it rains! And tonight I have a dinner to go to, where the food will probably be off my plan but the social rewards will more than make up for it. If it rains and I can't plant my flowers, I have NO excuse left for not exercising!
The thing I need to remind myself today is that my life is like walking a path. I get stuck sometimes, I mistakenly take detours, and sometimes I just have to stop and rest and re-group. But my eventual goal is to get to the other end of the path, and I have a lot of lessons to learn before I get there, like which direction should I go now? It's ok to slow down, take a breather, even ask for help. But for me, it's not ok to quit.