note to self... May 19th 2019
Sunday, May 19, 2019
Although yesterday was a terrible day for calories my weight has remained stable. I’m still in the mid-150s. As long as I don’t backtrack into gaining weight, the occasional stasis isn’t quite as bad. I am grateful, in fact, that I am learning to let me body stay put sometimes. It’s a very hard lesson for me but at the heart of these last two years of weight management. Two years ago at this time I was laid up after surgery and this latest journey was fully underway as I was gaining weight almost every week. I reached a high of 166.1-pounds in January of 2018, up from a low of 136.4-pounds in February of 2017. Since then I’ve gone through all sorts of conniption fits about my weight. Slowly though I began to realize that I was maintaining my weight, albeit at a level too high for my ego, with little stress if I just didn’t think about it so much.
For decades I was the diet princess – I could lose weight on almost any crazy plan, but keeping that weight off was damned near impossible. I would be okay for a short while, sometimes even a few months, but then the weight would pile back on far more quickly than it went off. While looking at my pictures over my life I came to the conclusion that I had become the great “accordion” woman – alternately expanding and contracting through the decades. I wanted off that merry-go-round. I started back on this trek in June of 2008, weighing right around 230-pounds, The first step was to return to the gym – the YMCA to be exact – and I became a “gym rat” even before I started to address my eating.
I joined SparkPeople on November 18th 2008 and by that time was just above 200-pounds. It’s been a rocky road sometimes but I know that having this site in my arsenal went a long way towards changing how I look at the whole diet-and-exercise thing. I’ve gotten better at maintenance and lazier at losing. And as I’ve gotten older my body is not as adept at simply shedding the weight everytime I eat a few hundred calories under my maximum. But I am still learning – and I might add getting better – especially at just picking myself up and getting going again after I fail. No more throwing in the towel for months/years at a time.