Life Rings Sent: THANK YOU
Sunday, May 19, 2019
Thank you to everyone who left kind words on my blog last Sunday. I realized after I wrote it it was Mother's Day, and I was so tangled up in my feelings that day that I didn't even stop to enjoy myself with my daughter, who is the reason I am fighting my feelings, my mind, in my battle to good health.
This was a better week. It was far from perfect, but it wasn't the week before. I think I only had one "episode" of poor eating choices, and that was Tuesday when I stopped at the store on the way home after an extremely stressful day at work. My one small goal for last week was to not wake up with that "food hangover" feeling... you know the one where your stomach is still trying to digest all the garbage you ate from the day before? Well, that only happened once this week, so I'd say mission accomplished.
It is time to focus on this week's goal. This week, I am aiming to only eat three meals and one snack in a day. No mindless grazing. No shoveling in the junk. Just breakfast, lunch, dinner, and a snack somewhere. I will not take my snack with me to work, since I usually seem to want one either right when I get home or after dinner.
I did a few things right this weekend. Yesterday, I meal prepped for the month. I made mostly "clean" meals. I've decided I eventually want to eat 100% clean, but not right away. Little by little. I'm proud to say as of now, I'm eating about 75% clean, paying attention to labels, and watching what I'm choosing to eat. Anyway, since junk is my downfall, I played around with two dessert type snacks that are clean. I'm going to eat one every Saturday so I don't feel completely deprived of my chocolate. Because I do love chocolate.
Today, I walked for 30 minutes, which was nice. It's been awhile. Hard to believe I walked 2018 plus miles last year, but hey, I'm the poster child for what happens when you stop doing the work.
Taking this week day by day. I look forward to being able to become strong again. I feel better, I'm currently holding on to all the life rings you all sent me, and I'm treading water. (Hey, at least I'm getting some exercise.) The life rings are helping move me closer to my raft... I need it to take me on my journey. This time, when I'm desperately looking for land, I will know that I will sail this sea of good health forever. There is no "destination". This is a constant and daily commitment. I will never reach the Island of Good Health because it doesn't exist. Good health is found on the open sea, beginning with every beautiful sunrise, and ending with sunset. Sometimes, it's smooth sailing.
Sometimes, the waters are rough. It is when the sea is jouncing you around, and you're being tested, this is when you must fight harder. This is when that inner warrior must step up and sail your ship.
The storm will eventually pass.