Day 149 - worried
Monday, May 20, 2019
Big blunder yesterday. Lot’s of things went wrong. Headed out for a social event, with potluck. All food with carbs, rice, noodles, pasta, etc.
Thought I give it a try and do the polite thing and partake. Didn’t necessarily overeat, but maybe a bit more than I eat these days. Didn’t even go over my calorie goal, but everything was salty, and within an hour drank 4 bottles of water, after which I felt stuffed, bloated.
Got angry with myself for not passing and sticking to my usual, protein only dinner. This morning, woke up to a 3+ lbs weight gain (I know its water, for now....). Was really disappointed and felt like I let myself down. Everything was going so well, and than this.
And, in addition, since we got home late, and I “had to” watch GOT, I skipped writing my blog, which didn’t make me happy either.
With a bit more perspective tonight, I realize that not all is lost, today was a new day and I was on point. The only problem is, it always started off like this. Slip a bit, forget about it. Slip again, start caring less. Slip a couple of more times, and.....thinking what’s the point......
I do know I am in a better place and much better prepared than in the past. I recognize that if something didn’t go as planned, getting back to my routine gets me back on track and trajectory. I just never liked the idea of me letting anyone down, and least myself.
But, I choose not to beat myself up any more. I got up, and I will keep getting up until I am where where I chose to be. I will make this happen, because I can, and I chose to.
I also know I have to eventually add some healthy carbs back into my diet. Just have to learn to handle myself a bit better.
Day 149 - 68.2lbs down - only 131.8lbs or 451 days to go to 225
I WILL succeed, because I choose to, because I CARE!
C - COMMIT + Plan every day - I choose to see every day as a new opportunity!
A - ACT on my plans consistently - I choose to take the initiative, I own this!
R - RECORD + REVIEW daily - what worked, what didn’t - Celebrate every victory, learn from any challenge!
E - EMBRACE the journey - I choose to own every decision and every choice and will not be derailed by one challenge, by one bad choice!