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Thinking about "Why" I Started

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

I need to review my "Why" for needing/wanting to lose weight, because I've lost my focus over these past few months and I must get it back if I'm going to reach my weight goal (and other life goals). I have sleep apnea, which I believe I developed during the time period where I was gaining weight like there was no tomorrow. I was diagnosed with it one year ago this month. I started using a CPAP about a month later, as I had to wait to get an appointment with a pulmonologist and then get the CPAP ordered, etc. Anyway--I do not particularly enjoy this contraption, but it really does help me sleep and I do feel better.

Lately, however, over the last few months, I've noticed I'm not sleeping as well and I'm not sure why. All I know is that I want to be able to stop using the CPAP as soon as possible.

I hope that losing weight and reaching a healthy weight will cure me of sleep apnea. I don't know if it will, but I want to try. I need to stay focused on my healthy lifestyle, but I'm not doing that and it hurts me to think that, deep inside, I have given up trying because maybe I don't think I'm worth it. Maybe I think I'll never be able to be free of my condition.

I need optimism. I need hope that, even if I have to use the CPAP for the rest of my life, that I will overcome my objections to it and move on in a positive manner.

Remember your "Why" -- Always remember your "Why."
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