What if I didn't quit?
Friday, May 24, 2019
This morning, I've been thinking. A few things I read here and there as I hopped and bopped around Spark inspired me, reminding me of something very important to my journey here...
What if, right when change is just about to happen, I go off plan, decide to quit, or convince myself that "the plan isn't working" and jump ship? What if, had I hung in there a bit longer, the change for which I had been waiting and working happened, but I missed it because I wasn't willing to wait for it, to continue working for it, to know that sooner or later, it would happen? What if I didn't quit? What if I didn't switch plans yet again? What if I persisted just a little longer?
A few years ago I remember reading that I never have to start over if I don't ever quit. I wanted to do that, but too often I get so tired of tracking food (for YEARS now!) and making all the "right" food choices and "being good," yet with so few results. Or a major loss (over 100 pounds) only to regain yet again. Or, despite making all the best choices and staying on plan for a long time, I gain. And that discourages me.
But the note today is to remind myself, despite any bit of stall or gain, what if I just refused to quit? What if I chose to channel my usual stubborn tenacity I have towards everything else in my life into THIS effort?
Am I too old? Has all this extra weight just become so glued to me that it now refuses to budge despite my best efforts? And, more importantly, even IF that were true, isn't staying on a healthy plan of eating the BEST choice I can make regardless of whether or not I lose weight?
So today I am reminding myself that quitting and giving up, that buying into the lie that "there is always tomorrow", are simply not options. I don;t have to be heroic. I don't have to lose 100 pounds in 6 months. I don't even have to lose 2 pounds per week. I need to toss out the goals and just focus on the one thing I can control, the ONLY thing I can control, and take just this one day to decide that I stubbornly refuse to quit, no matter what. If I know I am making healthy choices, even though the scale doesn't move downwards when I think it should, I will not quit.
One thing I know for certain is that making all the best choices today might not make the scale reflect a loss tomorrow, but giving up today will most CERTAINLY result in a scale gain tomorrow.
So, the choice is mine, and the choice is clear: Don't quit. Stay the course. Ride out the storm. Continue to make the best choices, no matter how discouraged, how challenging, how stressful life may be today.
I CANNOT CONTROL THE SCALE, BUT I CAN CONTROL MY CHOICES. Eventually, the scale will catch up with me.
TODAY, I AM CHOOSING POSITIVE PERSISTENCE rather than giving up.
TODAY, I am choosing not to measure my progress against other people's progress, not even to what the scale tells me. My new progress scale is this: Did I quit, or did I persist?
What if I didn't quit? It's a question only I can answer by each choice I make one moment at a time!