I got back on the rower today
Monday, May 27, 2019
Last week wasn't an easy one for me. It ended with a trip to the hospital in case I was having a heart attack (my shoulder and neck developed very sudden intense pain that lasted ... well it's still here. Nothing wrong with my heart (thankfully!) but the xray showed some calcification on the shoulder so they want my GP to order get an ultrasound done on the area.
I took Friday and Saturday off, spent some time being up and about on Sunday and did a few household chores. Today I eventually got up and after a long (MUCH needed) phone call with one of my sisters, I did the household and the work stuff. And shortly will finish the day with everything I wanted to get done ... done. Including 10 minutes getting some cardio in. It's not a lot, but I feel like I'm back at the beginning again and the best thing for me to do was get back on the horse. Er. Rowing machine. The shoulder held up fine so that's good.
I'm still learning how to mourn and how to cope with my 'new' circumstances. I think that had a lot to do with my rough patch last week and I really gave myself permission (again) to really have a major crying jag the other night. It helped. Tomorrow I have my grief support group meeting (it's only for people who've lost a spouse), so I'm sure to both cry and get support at the same time. It helps. Sorry I'm not as cheerful as usual, but at least I'm not hiding the grief.
Anyway, time to get that one thing off my list and have a relaxing evening. Thank you for keeping me sparking as best as I can. It may be a little spark now but little sparks can grow.