Week 5 - Wednesday: Derailed
Wednesday, May 29, 2019
Well, if I considered getting "sidetracked" in Week 4, I have totally derailed so far in Week 5. I blogged last about some struggles in Week 4 last time, and Friday's weigh-in showed a small gain. I tried to rationalize it as likely water weight - having had a stomach bug and not drinking my 8 glasses of water a day. And while that could be true, I let that small gain totally throw me off. I thought - well, I won't count that; I'll eat right today and drink all my water and get on the scale again in the morning. I won't have to record that gain.
But then I didn't....I didn't do any of that on Friday. And I "took a break" over the long weekend. I told myself I'd get back on track Tuesday - fresh and focused. Well, I did okay for the most part - except the part where I actually need to track what I eat. The day ended with me rationalizing I could eat half a Little Ceaser's pizza for dinner and "start fresh" again tomorrow.
This morning I still found myself struggling with the "this week is blown, I'll start fresh after weighing in on Friday" mentality. But honestly, it's likely going to be another gain at that rate and then I will still be off track.
I'M GOING TO FORCE IT OUT OF MY MIND. Start now, with the next meal or snack. Get back on track. Keeping moving forward. "I think I can, I think I can..."
And I think I'm going to give myself a pass on weigh-in on Friday. I've got to quit letting it control me.
I used Noom for a little while last Fall, and one of the things that has stuck with me was their illustration that motivation comes in waves. I can't remember all the terms they used, but basically, when you first start dieting/eating better/exercising, you are at an incline or perhaps the peak of a wave. Eventually, you reach a point where it dips and your motivation goes down. But you don't have to stay in the valley; you can climb out and get on top of the wave again. Some valleys are small...and some valleys are not as small.
Well, today I am climbing out of the first valley. It might be a little struggle, but I'm climbing.
"I will lift up my eyes to the mountains -
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth."
-Psalm 121: 1-2 (A song of ascents)
Week 1 weigh-in: -3.4
Week 2 weigh-in: -1.1
Week 3 weigh-in: -0.9
Week 4 weigh-in: +0.7
Total down: 4.7