Anything I Want
Friday, June 07, 2019
Yesterday was a busy day. I lucked myself into one of those days where you are not very hungry and also too busy doing things to really notice.
So it got to be late evening, and it was time to choose dinner. I have been following an eating plan that has three smaller meals and two hearty snacks. The smaller meals are a new eating style for me.
But this night I had plenty of time and a surplus of calories, having eaten less due to time constraints and having gotten in two good exercise sessions.
I could eat Anything I Want.
I could splurge. I load up. I could pile on. But then I thought, "Is that what I want?"
My Beck Advantages Response Card came to mind. Those things are things that I want. A stronger body, an easier time finding flattering clothes that fit, being fit enough to do my favorite activities like swimming and hiking and canoeing. Healthy! Confident. Happy. Those are what I want.
And I also realized that I can always eat Anything I want, at least from the choices available. And as an independent adult, I have more control over my options than some. Scout camp next week will be a challenge perhaps because I will have to make due with the options made available.
But last night, there in my own kitchen, I knew that I could eat Anything. And hat I wanted was to eat food that while delicious would suppprt my health, not sabotage my efforts. I'm worth it.
My final question, in taking stock of my body as it is now, is to wonder what it is I have been wanting for the past 20 years. I will have to confront those desires and find another to care for those needs without eating myself to a state of poor health.
But for today I will be thankful for this small victory. I actually want to be healthy so that I can follow the plans God has for me.
And dinner, healthy and simple, as delicious.