Monday, June 24, 2019
Last week I was inspired after reading two different blogs. The first was about a blogger who has been successful at losing weight by simply listening to their body and not overeating.
The second blog was a visual diary of every meal, a screenshot of calories eaten and burned from the spark main page, and a Fitbit screenshot of daily step-count.
Both of these blogs intrigued me. I have been on this weight loss Journey for several years and have been successful at losing 20 and 30 lb, but gaining all the weight back afterward. And each time I try to lose the weight again, it seems more difficult. I want to find a way to lose the weight and keep it off.
I struggle with anxiety and depression, and food is one of the easy go- to items that can create an instant serotonin burst. I'm not sure when food became my source for happiness. I've always been a lover of food but not in an unhealthy way. I've only started struggling with my weight the past seven or eight years and in that time there has been an increasingly high amount of stress in my life. However most of those stressors are gone now and I am still left struggling with food.
On top of the struggle with an unhealthy relationship with food, I find that tracking every bite that I eat can be stressful. I grew up poor, and we still struggle financially. I feel that not finishing the food on my plate is a waste of money. I also feel that if I track food, I must eat it because of my OCD. If I take the time to measure and know that something is accurate it will bother me to no end knowing that I didn't take the last sip of coffee, or the last two bites that were on my plate even though my stomach was full. Or if someone takes food off my plate 😲😵😵.
I've decided I want to implement both of these ideas, one at a time. For the next two weeks, I'm going to listen to my body and eat only when I'm hungry. I will stop eating when I am full. Leftovers will have to go to the kids, the dogs or the chickens so I don't feel as if I'm throwing away food. This way I will be able to gauge what my serving sizes should be in order to satiate my appetite. Once I have developed this habit, I will start tracking the calories for each serving. That will give me a starting point for what my macro level should be to keep me satisfied. Once I have tracked all of my meals of the correct portion sizes for 2 weeks then I will adjust macros as needed , and add exercise as needed to create a calorie deficit.
Like I said earlier, I have been doing this for years so I have a pretty good idea of what serving sizes should be, I just need to adjust my mindset so that I don't feel I have to have an entire serving. My goal is to be able to stay within macros and calorie count without having to track everyday. I do a lot of housework and yard work as a stay-at-home mom and working part time. The summer months are especially busy cleaning up branches, mowing the grass, gardening and taking care of chickens, rabbits, ducks and our dogs. The plan for the future is to add more animals, so that will be more work and I want to be in better physical and mental shape in order to be able to handle those tasks.
I'm giving myself this week to take things easy and stick to walking until I am done with my antibiotics. I was bitten by a spider that caused a bacterial infection that nearly put me in the hospital. It was nothing venomous, I just have a really bad reaction to spider bites. After this week I plan to ride my stationary bike first thing in the morning for at least 10 minutes. On days I don't have a lot of yard work to do I plan to do bodyweight exercises and strength training.
My overall goal is to look better and feel better and lose a total of 30 lb. That's where I was at last year when I felt good and my blood work looked good. I will visit my doctor this Wednesday to see where I'm at with my blood work. I've been putting it off for six months because I had put on 15 lb and my blood work was not looking so good. I told her I would try to lose weight and ended up putting on another 20 lb. 😮 But I have to face this head-on. I'm in my thirties and I want to be proactive in preventing any health problems that might arise. My boys are young but my husband is much older than I am and we both need to be in better health if we want to move forward with the plans we have for the future.
I have already weighed and measured and plan to track these things weekly. Wish me luck! Thanks for reading my ramblings 😃