How high, is too high?
Wednesday, June 26, 2019
Oh boy, I was riding the "high" on all of my awesome NSV this weekend. It was my birthday weekend and I had four days off from work. To put it simply, it was time to celebrate.
Friday started out fairly normal. My body naturally woke me up at 530 am and I was ok with that. Friday is my ST day and I was excited to hit the gym earlier than my normal lunch hour that I typically did because I'd be at work. Made a very sensible under 400 calories breakfast, grabbed my gym bag and ran out the door. Afterwards I ran some errands, dropped kids off at friends houses, made a great healthy chicken taco dinner. Man, I'm rocking it!
That's where it went slowly down hill. My closest girlfriend came to stay the night to get the bday weekend started. We grabbed snacks from the store, put on silly facemasks, and watched chick flicks till we passed out. Snacks weren't super bad. Skinny pop popcorn and a low calorie ice cream bar. I know, still not horrible.. but it opened the door to Saturday.
I really tried to get a great and healthy start to my day. Did my morning aerobics, ate a great breakfast and got ready to go shopping. Found some cute new clothes since I'd been shrinking out of my old ones. Aha, first NSV high rolled in... I worked so hard and I've exercised and ate a good breakfast today. I deserved a treat!
Well, my silly treat consisted of a French dip sandwich and onion rings. Haven't eaten either in AGES. Not my brightest moment, but still didn't break the calorie bank. So I figured, eh it's fine. I'm going dancing later so I'll work it off. Of course dancing led to some drinks, which led to too many drinks... so on and so forth.
Needless to say. Sunday led to the dreaded hangover. I was icky sick for most of the morning and early afternoon. Oh lord, what did I do to myself?!? I am no spring chicken anymore! I can't drink like I'm in college, what was I thinking??? Speaking of college, what did I eat to cure my hangover? Oh yeah... spicy chicken wings. So yes, you guessed it. My breakfast, lunch, and dinner consisted of spicy chicken wings. Between the hangover and the wings no exercise happened that day. It's a wonder I survived at all!
After I finally awoke from my Crown Royal induced coma Monday morning, I felt a bit better. Thought to myself, I can go sweat this out in the gym. So I did! I was feeling pretty good about myself, today was my actual bday and I still made it to the gym! Shoot, I was feeling so great I took a pic of my gyms logo to share with my Facebook friends.
Unknowingly my full body reflection was also in that picture I shared on Facebook. You see, I have been fairly private, with the exception of SparkPeople, in my weight loss journey and many of my friends and family I don't see often hadn't a clue that I've lost 70ish lbs since they've seen me. Whelp, a friend noticed the reflection and started a snowball effect of many complements and well wishes in my change.
It was AWESOME to hear those kind words of encouragement and admiration... my "high" continued to grow. Damn, I actually think I was getting kind of cocky....
My boys decided to cook me dinner for my bday since hubby was out of town working. That was his thing he does is to cook me my favorite meal. The boys stepped up and made me the most wonderful meal. They planned a menu, made an ingredients list, were given a budget, grocery shopped, cooked, and served me my meal!! It was just so cool to see my 17 and 15 year old come together and plan something so thoughtfully. The birthday meal was definitely not the healthiest, but it was made with love, so I ate it. All of it. Again, I thought this a treat I deserve! I went to the gym, did a 45 minute walk, and played basketball with the boys. So why the heck not, eat the food.
My boys made rib eye, loaded baked potatoes, salad, and sauteed asparagus. The little buggers even poured me a glass of red wine and bought a little chocolate mousse fruit cup. I ate it all. The cheesy, bacony, buttery potato.. the full fat ranch on the salad with the croutons, and the over poured glass of red... I barely, I mean like a tick hair, barely stayed within my calorie budget.. sheesh.
Today, I thought, today is the day that I am 100% back and will not eat anymore high calories. But did I listen to myself? Nope.. again started off strong on breakfast, but lunch was questionable. The coworkers took me out for a late bday lunch and we went to a sandwich shop. The sandwich wasn't bad, but that damn mac salad was not so good. *sigh* I was super busy catching up from my four day weekend at work that I didn't drink enough water nor did I have my early dinner before job #2.
So I had flipping chicken strips for dinner. I show up to work starving and allowed myself to cheat, again. I fooled myself into thinking that I had done so well this last few weeks that for 4 days in a row, I made poor eating choices. Yuck.
So I ask you my fellow Sparkers. How high, is too high?