Every morning star with a Thank You
Thursday, July 04, 2019
So this is my first time “blogging” and not quite sure where to begin. I’ve always had an issue controlling my weight. Growing up I watched my friends eat whatever they wanted and of course I joined in cause what kid wouldn’t right? So here I was, the chubby, acne faced friend and secretly depressed.
Then came college. No money and stressed out and still dealing with depression, I turned to excessive exercise and barley eating, that was the only part of my life that I could control. I did lose a lot of weight but it wasn’t healthy, mentally or physically. I got very sick and had to leave college and return home.
The next phase of my life was full time job, marriage and kids. My kids are the absolutely best thing that has ever happened in my life. FINALLY I was happy with my life!! Not stressed about money, my weight or fitting in with a social life.
Then my beautiful children started their college life. Both successful and happy. And I’m so proud of them!! But now what do I do?
I’m almost 50, body totally deciding it just wants to lay in bed all day and survive on take out. Well that’s what I’ve been doing for the 2 past years. Am I going crazy?
Laying in bed one night very emotional over how I’ve let myself go, I started to read my bible. “I’m not alone dealing with my struggles” I said to myself. Jesus will help me get through this, but I have to do my part!!
So now I’m starting yet another chapter of my life. My health and fitness are definitely important but Jesus is my focus. I’m working on loving myself and remembering the blessings in my life. It’s not an easy road but I will persevere.