Sunday, July 14, 2019
If anyone has struggled with their weight, they may have struggled with vulnerability as well. I've read things about how weight is a way of protecting oneself emotionally. The first time I read that I didn't believe it, but now I've grown into self-awareness, I understand. It's hard to be vulnerable and straightforward. Caring for people often feel like putting your neck on the line.
I'm a highly emotional person, but I deny it. I know I put up walls and block people out. I pretend not to care. I stand back and let other people live, because I'm not the one who's going to get hurt.
The ironic thing is that this method is most painful of all. If you block all the pain, you also block all the joy.
Do you struggle with this too? I wish I could give you more than what I know, but I habe only a bit I have learned. Acknowledge your feelings as valid and real. Acknowledge cravings to overeat in the lense of how you are feeling. Cravings are basically your emotional state needing attention.
Let yourself feel, and sugar won't be such a huge vice. Listen to quiet music, meditate, pray, seek all those gentle tender sensitivities within yourself. It's okay. Feeling things without food is better than discovering a new array of favorite foods. Trust me.
Art: stylized project for a class, by me. Please don't use without permission.