Day 1/241 - Can I do it?
Monday, July 15, 2019
Oh my! 68 pounds sounds like "unattainable," "a losing battle," "coming frustration," and "unreachable."
My mother put me on my first diet when I was 9 years old. Yes, 9 years old. I thank God she did. While I have fought a lifelong battle with my weight and definitely have a horrible self-image, my mother kept me from ballooning even further than I've done over the years. I am constantly focused on what I'm eating, counting calories in my head, and shaking it every time I eat something unhealthy. I do it anyway, although I don't know why.
I just retired on June 30 from an extremely stressful job. I used the job as an excuse to overeat and over drink (I love wine). Eating take-out, stopping for a drink became my reward at the end of a trying day, and I got very used to it.
So I've gained 68 pounds since I took the job, and have tried to lose it many times over the 14 years I held the job. With retirement I have no excuses. I've enjoyed 2 weeks and now it is time to get down to the hard work of getting healthy again.
I start today. That 68 pounds seems unattainable right now but my first step is taken: getting on Sparkpeople. I'm hopeful this community and all of the resources available here will keep me motivated as I work to attain that goal!