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7-18-19

Thursday, July 18, 2019

ok, so I disappeared last year, after a GREAT START...(I HAD BREAST CANCER) in my left breast. did 10 Biopsies, and 4 large mass removals....etc...........i did however remain, pretty much 99% on my Aktins diet....from March 6th 2018 until October 15th 2018.......then I never went back on my diet UGH...IT WAS A VERY stressful year...and I am SO glad that it is over...
here in 2019 ***** I QUIT SMOKING, YES FOR GOOD!!!*************
Ummmm, so that being said, and me trying to deal with cravings, I decided NOT to cut back on my alcohol intake........(i told myself, I didn't want to quit ALL of my bad habbits all at one time.................so here i am..............doing great, and going strong.......I do believe I will NEVER pick up another Cigarette again.............YAY
Everything was okay.............(per financial issues, we (me & my hubby have been on high alert stressing............(long story)
I FINALLY HAD found a job (after looking for almost 10 + mnths..........but they "decided" to let me go???with no warning, or explanation.........which DID NOT HELP my EGO........:(
(another bad, and long story) AND that was NOT the worst...........
Anyone, who knows me........knows about my COMPLETE LOVE FOR ANIMALS, & specifically my dachshunds...........(Penny, MY ANGEL, AND SAVING GRACE, RESCUE)
WELL.....we knew her time was going out s...sometime this year........(per cancer) and she turned **** 20 YEARS OLD, on 2-7-19) ***** MY MIRACLE BABY
she was fine, and doing just normal and her great self..........(on a Friday, and then, after me working on that Saturday morning, from 8-12 her CANCER JUST BLEW UP ...her entire head and face, swelled up.........we went to Emergency Vets.....and gave her all the meds we could...they told me, EITHER she would get better (in the next 24 hrs, OR GET WORSE)
well, by the next day, her breathing became LABORED AND SHE STOPPED EATING......
IT ALL happened so Fast, (but I had no choice, BUT TO PUT HER DOWN)
(THIS WAS THE DOG, WHO SAVED MY multiple times ( from suicide, etc......) GOD, sent her to me in December of 2005, she was about 6 years old.......(another long, story) but I had to send her back to her original owners after having her for over 4 weeks.... I was feeling SO DEFEATED............ but GOD, AGAIN gave her back to me......original owners again did not want her so I GOT TO KEEP HER FOR GOOD, She came back to me, FOREVER TO BE MINE, on 2-7-2005 ( I made this her bday) she was about 6 years old....she was MY PRIDE AND JOY, my reason for living, my saving grace, etc...
AND ................THE MOST PERFECT DACHSHUND, that EVER LIVED....TRUTH
SHE WAS ABSOLUTELY PERFECT in every single way
So THAT FINAL BLOW, WAS MORE THAN HARD............and I ended up, drinking a lot of the time...to keep myself from "falling apart in public, etc but my entire HOUSEHOLD, also was mourning....no one ate (not even my other dachshunds, or hubby) for 4 1/2 almost 5 days......we were ALL A COMPLETE MESS...

So my point is, I ATE HORRIBLE AND DRANK WAY TOO MUCH, and ended up gaining 48 lbs.....................more than I had lost all of the entire last year :(
But I NEVER STARTED SMOKING AGAIN...( ONE SILVER CLOUD)
It is now, 7-18-19 I have a new job..............THAT I LOVE SO SO SO, MUCH...........
I can not even begin to say HOW PERFECT THIS JOB IS.
And I am ready to tackle my bad drinking and eating habits
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