Trying Something New
Thursday, July 25, 2019
My 30 year class reunion was last weekend. I had planned on going, but ended up changing my mind. Partly because I have put on so much weight these past few years. I'm embarrassed. You'd think I wouldn't/shouldn't care what anyone thinks, but even though I haven't seen most of these people since high school- I still do. I hate feeling judged. I wonder if I'll still care when it is time for the 40th? I hope not. There are far more important things to focus my energy on! Anyway, a friend of mine from high school found me on Facebook due to the reunion and reached out to me. She looks great and seems so happy. She told me that this past year she finally broke free from her food addiction - something she has struggled with since we were kids. I'm really proud of her. I feel like my life has been a constant yo-yo and I have never been able to maintain. I struggle with emotional eating and seem to have all of these mind games I continue to play with myself. I'm looking forward to trying something new - learning what my friend has done differently (how she was able to shift her mindset) and more about the journey she has been on. I have hope that I will also reach my goal - yet again. I also hope that this time I have the strength to stay there. Congratulations to all of you who have met your goals and maintained! Sending support and encouragement to all of you - who like me - are traveling down this road for the first or (what seems like) 100th time with the determination to live our best lives.