Isn't it great to be able to begin again every day, or every hour, or every minute, if need be!
Wednesday, July 31, 2019
I was just thinking about my past and how often I've gotten stuck in All or Nothing thinking about my health. Either I was ON for the week of OFF for the week. Either I was healthy or I was unhealthy. That kind of thinking set me up for perfectionism which is an unattainable or even desirable goal. Nowadays I notice that I give myself permission to be both ON AND OFF at any time of the week, day, hour or minute. It's freed me up in my views of my own successes and challenges. Life seldom goes according to my plan.
And giving myself a bit of leeway sure has made my life more enjoyable and much more enjoyable for those around me. I am learning how much leeway to allow myself in various circumstances.
I had colon surgery in May. It was unplanned. I showed up at our local ER and was in surgery within the hour. It's been a challenge recovering from not only the surgery, but the required changes to my lifestyle that it required. I wish I could say I was upbeat and positive the entire time. But I was neither all ON or all OFF. And I needed the help I had such trouble asking for from my DH, friends, and family. Everyone of them encouraged me to give myself some leeway to recover. I couldn't force my body to go any faster than what was natural for it. I'm learning I am not a machine with an ON and OFF switch. I am a human being, subject to all the foibles and victories that come with that 'membership'.