A Whole New Start
Wednesday, August 07, 2019
I guess I'm like a lot of people; I was always a little overweight (20-ish pounds) since high school. Then I was in college, then I started a career, and then I started a family. I was at my most fit the year I did my student teaching. After school, I would go to the gym and work out for an hour, every day. I was strong, and fit, but I was still 20 pounds overweight.
On the other hand, students used to notice my legs. I was doing lots of StairMaster, and I had really muscular calves.
But, I digress. I had 3 kids and then I was in Mom-land. Providing food and a clean house and wearable clothes and moral support and parenting: it all adds up to a 26 hour day. I just didn't take the time to take care of myself in between driving them to their activities.
And, can I say now that I was proud of how many activities they did? Boy Scouts, hockey (yes, even the girls), gymnastics (yes, even the boy), church groups, music lessons and band, I was proud of all the things they were interested in, and all the activities in which they participated. I did my share of volunteering and was on a couple of boards of directors. And again, it ate my time and I didn't worry too hard about exercise and diet. I'd get around to it.
Well, the oldest baby is 20 years old now, a college student with a high GPA at a prestigious university. The middle baby is 17, a senior in high school this year (and I'm trying not to be stressed about what's going to become of her). The youngest baby is 13 and a dancer.
I guess it's just my turn?
I have challenges, of course. Last year we had family members staying with us for the school year and this stressed out the two children who still live here, not to mention me. I'm writing a book, and barely made any progress on it in the last year. I have some household drama independent of that and sometimes that means I'm not writing because I'm too overwhelmed by other things.
Writing this out, I realized that what I'm looking at is what are my obstacles, and how I'm going to overcome them. Other than the usual, "I skipped the gym because ____." Instead of a take-no-prisoners attitude, I'm trying something new.
I'm going to try to be nice to myself. Some days, it really doesn't work, and I want to be okay with that. And little by little, I get new habits and I don't have to be perfect on the first try or on the 37th day or even, ever.