The night before changes...
Saturday, August 10, 2019
Twas the night before the first day of changes and I sat on the couch... yeah I can't keep going lol. My exercise bike came today so I decided to put it together and restart my spark page. I'm the heaviest I've ever been at close to 250 pounds and wearing a size 20/22... I just had a terrible reality check though when I almost couldn't get on a ride at Santa's village last Sunday with my 5 year old. We're planning a trip to Disney in the spring and I MUST be able to fit on rides with her, no exceptions or excuses... but can someone please help me find a way to make vegetables taste like cheese or chocolate? I hate fruits and veggies :(
In high school I used to run 5ks and eat salad. I was never fast though so as I stopped being competitive I started gaining and eating tons of cheese sticks and candy bars because when I wasn't running I had no reason to not eat crap food that tastes awesome even if it makes me tired and heavy. Fast forward to today, I'm a single mom of 2, can't cook, and I'm sedentary.
I'm also starting antidepressants again Monday. I feel defeated and I'm so worried that I'm going to let myself and my children down... especially my daughter, my son is too young to know, but my daughters been riding roller coasters since she was 2 and I can't let her down.