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I have undone my hard work

Tuesday, August 20, 2019

After working so hard and losing so much weight, it didn’t really occur to me that I would start gaining it back. But these old terrible habits that I had had for so many years seem to catch up to me. Overtime I slowly begin to eat more and indulge more. Fast forward, I’ve gained 30 pounds back. This is devastating for me to admit to myself and I am so ashamed at myself and so depressed about gaining back some of the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I have an anxiety disorder and it has gotten the best of me on multiple occasions. I am on a medicine that one of the side effects causes weight gain because I am ravenously hungry all the time. I have to weigh whether or not I want to be slim and healthy or whether I need to have my anxiety controlled her medication. I could give a list of excuses as to why I gain weight back, but the cold hard fact is I gained it because I quit tracking and started indulging. I only have myself to blame and the only way around this is to go back to the habits that I had made to lose this weight. It is very hard this time because I am so ravenously hungry all the time from that medication. But, I cannot allow myself to get big again. I cannot.
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  • SILVAS7
    Good morning Kelly are you still here ? I'm back and restarting , but slowly this time . After several setbacks . I just wanted to say hello and don't give up !
    204 days ago
  • ANYTIMEILIKE
    It's very easy to fall back into some of our bad habits. Just get moving in the right direction now that you recognize the problem. I just got back on track after a 20 pound gain but I will keep a closer eye on myself next time.

    I also saw your last post about keeping alcohol under control. I have to do the same. It's been no alcohol for me for a couple of years and I feel so much better.
    357 days ago
  • BILLTHOMSON
    Keep trudging that road to happy destiny emoticon
    357 days ago
  • EOWYN24241
    You can do it!

    Hang in there!
    357 days ago
  • SNUZYQ2
    It's easy to see getting to one's goal weight as having arrived, but I'm learning more each day about obesity being a lifelong challenge for those of us who have once been heavy. We can do this, my friend! Speak kindly words to yourself now and stand up for yourself by fighting back. I'm pretty sure I'm going to need to track my nutrition and exercise for life no matter what. Today, I'm challenged by a sick hubby and our refrigerator having died. I must care for him and clean out the fridge and somehow keep on track (care for myself) all at the same time. We can do this...one day at a time and one step at a time. Let's get going!! emoticon
    357 days ago
  • KOALA_BEAR
    Don't feel ashamed for being human. You weren't cured, you fell off track but you know howxto lose lbs so welcome back. Plenty of us can relate cuz we've done it too, lost & regained. Stay strong.
    357 days ago
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