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In a Funk

Friday, August 23, 2019

Hey all,
I know it's been a moment or 2 since I last posted. And I want to apologize for taking so long to post. But since I last posted a lot has change in my life and not all of is has been for the good. I feel I need to get this off my chest. Where to start??

Well let's kick it off with my better half. I don't want to put my wife's business out there but for the past couple of months she has been going through the change of life. And then on top of all that as if that wasn't enough she has a illness that the doctors cannot figure out. She's had cat scans, MRI's done, enough blood work to feed a coven of vampires. And no one can figure out what is going on! She has been a trooper, but it's started to worry her and yours truly as well. I am trying to be strong for her and it's a constant struggle not to break down in front her. So if I felt like if I could put it in words that might make me stronger for her.

With my job I need to be at peak efficiency at all times. So that means healthy body and mind. And my mind has been constantly on my wife trying to figure out what's going on and trying to be a rock for her. So a lot of times my mind is not on my job and that could prove fatal. And with all that has been going on I have not eaten all that well and my exercise has been pretty much non existence. I just have not had the energy to even go out for a bike ride, the one thing that I do to unwind. It seems like my world is collapsing around me and I am losing control. And if that wasn't enough on my plate, I had to go for my annual physical for my job and when I weighed in I came in at 279 the heaviest I have ever weighed in my life. Help!!!

I know, I know it's mental thing. I need to get out of this funk get my head back in the game. I need to be stronger for my wife and for my job. And I want to hang around a bit longer to see my grandkids grow up. So, again I apologize for laying this all out on the line for everyone, I just needed to get this off my chest & does feel better getting this off my chest. Keep good thoughts for my wife. And I promise I will kick my but back into shape and back on the right path. And I also promise not to take 3 months to post again. Thanks everyone!! God Bless!!!

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    I will include you both in my prayers. You know that worrying won't accomplish anything, so stay strong and keep going in the right healthy direction, even at times with just baby steps.
    604 days ago
    THE TIME IS NOW...Your posting a blog is just the first step..Knowing what is troubling you is also a big step to getting out of this funk. Like they say "Move it - or lose it"...but also Move it- AND- lose it. You know what you have to do....Check your diet - include plenty of protein, drop some or all the carbs, and LOTS of fresh veggies...Exercise in whatever form you have energy to pull off... (.Lack of energy can be a symptom of something else going on in your body) So get a good physical checkup...You know already, you have to take care of yourself to take care of someone else. Your lovely wife wants you to be your very best.. and so do I..
    Hope this doesn't sound like I'm preaching to the choir... but somebody has to do it. Strong guys can handle strong talk..with a lot of love and hugs thrown in...
    Fall is coming, weather changing, fresh veggies in short supply...Winter can't be far behind - - so give it your best - like you always do.. YOU CAN DO IT. and don't be so long in letting us know what is going on. We are here FOR YOU....
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    604 days ago
    we all need to dump now and then, it is a lot you are carrying. you MUST take care of yourself to be there for your wife. Praying the doctors figure out what the problem is and help her get better.
    604 days ago
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    Writing is therapeutic. I reflect from my day and journal everyday. Keep your head up and never forget the goal. The goal is to live this life to the fullest. We only get this one chance. Now get out there and kick some butt. You can do it.
    604 days ago
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