First blog :)
Wednesday, August 28, 2019
Well this is my first try at blogging so bear with me pls :)
I’ve been trying to loose weight my whole life now without success
Sometimes I had a little bit of success just to be wiped off by a huge failure afterwards rendering me more heavy and more broken than before
It’s a known story of everyone who’s batteling that extra weight with some yo-yo dieting and no real will or determination.
Even today I don’t feel that motivation to start really pushing myself to achieve my goal. I’ve wished it for sooooo long but somehow am not prepared to work for it. I guess it has to do with the fact that I am too used to being comfortable and sedentary and don’t even want to make myself less comfortable just a little bit for myself although I do it for others. Don’t get me wrong I am a hard worker and I push myself out of my comfort zone alot but not when it comes to my body, my health or relationships , things that I’m used to being bad at :/ Nobody expects me to succeed so I don’t need to make the extra effort or walk the extra mile. But the problem is that by doing so I’m not only hurting myself but also disappointing others around me that share my dream. I’m sorry for the gloomy and depressing first blog :) It‘s just what’s on my mind right now.