Thursday, August 29, 2019
I was a member of Spark People a long time ago. My username was Belladonna921 (deactivated in 2012) but I hadn't used it in so long that I can no longer get into that account so I made a new one.
Here I am. A lot has changed since 2012. Short story: got divorced, started a new relationship, had a miracle baby at the age of 42, and got remarred to my daughter's father. My weight had always been an issue with my fertility. I lost 30 pounds doing zumba and then I got pregnant when I had been told repeatedly that I would not be able to have a child. I was high risk being an older first time mother who was morbidly obese. My daughter was born absolutely healthy. My husband (64 year old) and I have been blessed beyond any possible dream we could have had with our daughter.
With both of us being older parents, I have realized that we have to be in better health for her. We need to do everything in our power to be here for her for a long long time. My husband is healthy and active. Me ...not so much. I get discouraged very easily when I have long term goals so now I am doing short term goals by making better choices. My why to losing weight is my daughter. I want to be able to go down the slide with her. I want to go on all the roller coasters she is going to want to ride. I want to be able to do things that currently I am restricted from doing because of my weight/size: ziplining, going down the slides, horseback riding, ect.
This time is a different journey for me. My priorities are different and it is not about having motivation because I know I need to make some serious changes and I have to keep moving forward with them.