Mirror mirror on the wall.
Monday, September 16, 2019
Let me start by saying I have always been overweight and for the most part been very comfortable with it. I may not have been running any marathons but I had been in good enough shape that I could keep up with a spontaneous hike or game of volleyball.
In 2008 we moved from Virginia to Texas and I left my wall mirror in our old house. I was in no rush to get a new one (as long as I am clean and hair is not sticking out I am good to go). I didn't purposely set out to not buy one, I just never got around to it.
I started focusing on my health recently because I in the last 4 years I had a hysterectomy and switched to a sitting job. I have gained weight but more importantly for me was losing the ability to join in on various activities.
This weekend I went to a conference and stayed in a hotel room with a very large mirror. .. And I saw myself. I mean I really stopped, looked, and twirled. I turned on more lights. I took off my clothes. I. LOOKED. Not just the glance in the store mirror to make sure the top covered the curves I wanted. I took in.
Quite frankly I was shocked. I knew I gained weight but now I KNEW. I saw. I SAW all of me.
Needless to say, this has restarted my desire to get healthy. I hope that I can keep that image in my head - not to belittle myself but to stop forgetting and telling myself a little extra at dinner is no big deal, having a soda is fine.
Oh, and to remember to buy a mirror.