A New Beginning for a Shaky Starter
Wednesday, October 23, 2019
Today I weighed myself for the first time since beginning this quest three days ago. Officially today is my 5th day but I have only tracked for 3. I am beginning to feel more positive that I can do this. At first I really thought I could only lose weight with calorie numbers in the hundreds. But this time I have tried to stick with SP's recommendations (a maximum of between 1200 and 1500.) and I have lost so far, 2 lbs. The cynic I carry around in my head boos and says "Water weight. You know how your weight fluctuates! This is merely a fluctuation....tomorrow you will weigh more than you did when you started."
That is my secret fear. It seems that every time I get a nice scale reading and weigh again in a day or two, I will find I've lost nothing or even that I have gained weight. I know that the scale is not the best indicator.
And then I think "If I lose weight, the brand new coat I just bought will be way too big! And I will have to buy all new clothes!" But there is always Salvation Army...and as a reward, maybe I can order the same coat (because i really like it) in a smaller size as well. I do have enough clothes down through size large, so it will be quite some time before I need to worry about that.
Anyway these are good problems to have!
And today I am rejoicing. I know it is only 2 lbs. But as I said, it is largely proving the fact that if I follow this program, I will lose weight---and before, I really doubted that. The 70 lbs I'd lost years ago here on Spark were also lost through blood, sweat and tears as I exercised religiously and I worked HARD. Now, due to my health, that is no longer possible. However, I am exceptionally weak...Sometimes I have to try four or five times to get to standing from sitting and to get from lying down to sitting. These problems can be addressed by some simple exercises I know that I can do. I just have to gain enough motivation and desperation to get it going. I think I will amend my goals to include that.