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Capital A day?

Saturday, November 09, 2019

Firstly, thank you to everyone who wished me a capital A day today. If ever there was a day I needed it, it was today as I have weighed in very high for me, and I am quite frustrated about it.

I now have breakfast and lunch fairly under control. Also, I managed to get my 4-6pm snacking under control with the week before challenge of no unplanned eating. But I have gained weight.

I did not manage to get out jogging and, although my meals are much more planned, I have not been tracking my food this last week. (I walk to and from work for 30 minutes each day, so that kept me doing some exercise)

I was away for the weekend for a big family event, and had a huge deadline as well as my heaviest teaching schedule happen all at once. I also had a “could I be pregnant?” Late period, which left me feeling quite emotionally raw (I have blogged about this before) just before all of these other events.

I stuck with the Awesome A team and filling in my times, etc, because I really do not want to let the team down. But my heart is just not in it.

It is not working. Something inside me is just not getting the healthy life balance right. And I must be overeating somewhere. Or eating more calories than I should be for what my body needs right now. But the energy to track my calories is just not there. The energy to get things organised enough to exercise was also lacking. By the end of last weekend (after spilling wine and damaging the carpet if the guest house we were in) I had very little reserves left. My motivation is failing and the scale is reflecting this. How will I get this under control again?

I head out to Sweden for a work trip this week. Fortunately it is not a very busy trip and I may get a chance to rest. Then family arrives for holidays and birthdays. It is constantly busy. And I truly long to just stop and catch up with myself.
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    320 days ago
    I agree with take a deep breathe, and slowlllyyyy let it out.

    A quick gain, also comes off very quickly. I expect by the end of this week or the next you'll be back to your previous weight (I went and looked at your weigh in for this challenge and you are doing so WELL!). Please do not allow a gain to discourage you. In looking back even further, could you be where your body is happy at?

    I had thought I needed to go lower (I am still overweight and almost obese) but, with the exercise I do, many think I am 30 or more less than I am. So I needed to ask myself "is the number I have in mind one that I came up with before reaching where I am at? Am I able ALL that I wanted to(I've WAY exceeded those goals!)? Is it my mind or my body that's not happy(It was my Mind)?

    These helped me out so much.

    Your walking to and from work,,, that's so GREAT!!! If I didn't pick up clients I'd still not be able to do that. They live to far away. CONGRATS on that!!

    WOW on having so much under control with eating!! CONGRATS CONGRATS!!

    And TY TY TY For staying with us Sarah. We hope you do stay hon. You are an asset to us, not just because of your exercise/LTGLs, but because you care about others, and we do YOU too.

    Hugs hon!! ENJOY the vaca!!
    323 days ago
    emoticon I was heading over to your page to wish you a wonderful Capital A Day. The thing is you are emoticon . Why? Because you are able to voice your struggles instead of just dropping out. There is excellent advise from some of the comments. I have a fantastic coworker that tells me this when she sees me loosing it. “Just Breathe”. Life can be overwhelming. I think my coworker is telling me to take a few minutes and feel my breathe. That things will happen in its own time - not necessarily on my timetable. So be patient and kind to the person you are with every single moment of the day - yourself.
    323 days ago
  • GRACIE749
    I feel your frustration and at some point I'm sure everyone here can relate to the frustration of gaining weight instead of losing it.

    Try not to beat yourself up about it and don't let your frustration tell you to jump ship. As an Awesome A I say don't worry about letting us down, but focus on you and alleviating some of the stress. Motivation is key and without it almost impossible to succeed.

    With that being said you can pat yourself on the back for several things well done: Walking 30 minutes to and from work; planning your breakfast and lunch AND getting your snacks under control.

    Not tracking your food may have prevented you from gaining weight, but stress can be a factor in weight gain as well as alcohol consumption - just 5 oz. of red wine is 125 calories. I read somewhere when you drink your body is more focused on breaking down alcohol rather than burning fat and instead of burning fat, your body is burning the calories from the alcohol so it will take you longer to lose weight.

    Weight loss is not easy - if it were we all would be slim. I hope you have a very relaxing trip. emoticon

    323 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/9/2019 8:33:03 PM
    Breathe deeply, relax. I'm sorry you feel so overwhelmed. Hope you get to go far from it all for a good rest.
    323 days ago
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    I feel for you. For some of us, the go, go, go just does not support our health and well-being. Others seem to thrive on it. I am not one of those folks. I appear to need more downtime than most to maintain a healthy sense of equilibrium for myself.

    Hang in there! May the week away in Sweden actually be the respite you need. emoticon

    And, speak life, love and kindness over yourself. Know that you are doing the best you can with what you have where you are ... okay?

    323 days ago
    HUGS. I do hope you get a chance to rest. It sounds like you desperately need it!

    323 days ago
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