You ate WHAT?
Monday, November 11, 2019
yeah. a bag of cocoa dusted almonds. a LOT of calories and fat. (this was the night before last into yesterday. ) I tried to rally by having just some cantaloupe and cottage cheese. for dinner....but regardless, this morning I had gained 2 lbs I know all about "water weight" and "scale fluctuations" That scale reading is almost irrelevant. The problem i'm having now is recovering the mindset of taking charge over my eating and doing my best to have only good info to report. I'm going to my dad's today for five days and I ALWAYS gain at least a pound when I go there. I'm disgusted with myself and discouraged.
Add to that the fact that I'm being swamped by incorrect medical bills from my last hospitalization...and I am stressed. However I'm doing better than I was this AM. I had an anxiety attack that was just no fun. Various factors. As I write this my husband and daughter are at the vet with our itchy little kitty to try to figure out why she is pulling her hair out. This is highly stressful to all of us...Mayo kitty included. She gets so anxious about the car ride. I don't know whether it's car sickness or terror that causes her angst but each time we are sure she is going to die from the extent of her suffering. She foams at the mouth. She vomits. she cries and she pants for air with an open mouth.
All in all it's a lousy day. It's also my 30th wedding anniversary. And neither my husband nor I are celebrating. yes, we are still married...but that's about it.
So maybe not a day to be perfect but there's no reason to screw up either. Overeating just adds to stress.
I will welcome tomorrow. Today I'm going to my dad's house until Friday (as I said already) I enjoy going there. IT is good to get out of here for a while. I am disabled and don't get out of the house much. It's good sometimes for different---and more friendly--surroundings.
So I wish us all a blessed week - despite questionable beginnings. There's no where to go but up.